Can't Help But Feel.

So for as long as I could remember I have always liked girls, as soon as I got into high school all that changed.

So I got off the bus trying to find my way to orquestra. On my way I saw someone who for the first time in history made my heart drop. it strangely was a guy, just standing there with Greek God like features, like he was a son of Aphrodite. Then as if he could hear me looked at me and I stopped dead in my tracks. We held gaze for thirty second when the warning bell sound and I slipped into the building to get to class.

So then I went into my class with his face on my mind. that's when I remembered him. I saw him at the gym he unknowingly caught my attention the whole time. " come on J you're straight." I tried to convience myself. Even if I weren't he was a junior and I was a freshman. There could be no us. The more I tried to convince that it wasn't possible the more I believed it was. Cole (the guy) was a football star, and practically most of the female population wanted him. Even other guys. this has been a constant battle on my mind through 1st period until the bell sounded releasing us.

speaking of the sect devil, you'll never guess who I saw leaving the building.

But that was on the first day of school.

Now. is what I'm going to talk bout. Me and Cole talk, but we don't have hours long conversations. I try to get closer to him and I think its working.

So today I saw him wearing a long John shirt that well complimented his his muscles and pecks. And that's all I could think about in third period. until the teacher said something that caught my attention.

" If you bring a dollar to school tomorrow you get to leave class early."

So I'm thinking I should ask Cole. And so now I'm getting really impatient because the more excited I got the more the class droned on. We had to take a stupid test on a video and do a writing prompt, when finally the bell rang end third period. I jetted out the classroom to see him. I almost ran a short guy over trying to get to him. When I finally got to him I asked, "Are you bringing a dollar to get out of class tomorrow?"

"No, but I might change my mind later." he replied

Gosh his voice was sexy. I couldn't. wait to tell Mykala ( my lesbian best friend), who loved to know everything that happened in my love life. Well kind of love life. But she had problems of her own. Because some bitch with a nerve, embarrassed her, because Mykala tiemporarly like her. And so one of her friend ( a guy) went behind Mykala and shouted " This is the girl that like you "

And then the hitch shouted " I don't like girls" repeatedly. And that little stunt made Mykala mad, and also earned the bitch and that boy an ass whooping. I'm not going to hit the girl if that's what you were thinking. But that boy I'm going to beat the hell out of him. ( sorry for the profanity I'm not usually a person who curses unless I'm mad.

-please comment. this is my first story. and will be updated. become a fan if you want the rest.

Have you ever liked someone so much that you would try to do anything to get their attention?

Well you shouldn't do more than say hey or have conversation. If you really want to get a person try to be a friend before you try to be their boyfriend/girlfriend. I used to try and get Cole's attention a lot, but now I'm gonna try to be his friend.

So my day today was good other than Nautica. running her mouth trying to start drama and trying to be the star. She tried to convience someone that I lied on them by saying that they were talking bout someone, but boy were she proved wrong. I told the truth and just let it go. I think that's how I get out of public confrontations.

If it weren't for Miranda, Courtney, Mykayla, and others. I don't know how I could cope with everything. If you have great people in your life don't let them go, though you may have ups and downs doesn't mean its the end of the world. and for those who thin the worlds gonna end on 12/21/12 THE MAYANS DIDN'T COUNT FOUR A LEAP YEAR. People cant help how the feel but just go where the hearts take you.

will be updated soon.

12/21/12

So far I have been Cole free but for some reason I feel like I'm starving there is something from him that I need. Don't get me wrong I'm happy with being single but I have this nagging feel deep down. But I settle down with someone I can connect with then they would get all my attention. I'm not gonna keep fight for his attention if he's into me he'll get mine.

Mykala said I am easy to get sprung. But I don't think if I'm with a guy then I'll give them my attention, its not a relationship crime. Is it? I was twirked on a guy (shook my but on his penis, a dance) and made him come on his self. I laughed so hard, but I'm still a virgin. Just waiting for the right person. If your out there please respond.

I can be really shy when I'm around people I don't know. But other than that I'm a really cool party person, but I don't just party. I practice my cello and I dance and read. But everybody even the loud the and crazy have a down to earth side. What's yours?

And by the way, PERFECT IS SO OVERRATED.

AN UPDATE WILL COME SOON. I WILL USE FAKE PERSONALITIES AND REAL NAMES, PEOPLE JUST DIFFERENT PERSONALITIES TO MAKE THE FICTION STORY SEEM REAL. THIS STORY IS KIND OF HARD TO WRITE. BUT THANX FOR THE SUPPORT