2005, where it all began

Sophomore Year

Everything went down hill, my freshmen year of high school, after the incident with Emily, everyone treated me differently.

I was no longer the girl who everyone though was funny. No, i became nothing.

I am nothing...

Who ever said high school was easy, was obviously not fat or ugly. High school is so hard! Everyone judges you, hell my own teachers judged me.

I'm so sick and tired of everyone treating me like shit. Ana is my only outlet... I love you Ana.

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My sophomore year of high school, my parents got divorced, I thought things would change for me and my moms relationship and that things would get better, but it's only got worse. She wanted to ship me back of to Wisconsin with my dad, even though we just moved to California.
School was starting soon, and I had no friends, no life, and now I had no family. I couldn't wait to finish high school and move out.

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It's Friday, April 5th and I still haven't finished 4th period. I'm so nervous for today. I'm getting my drivers license after school- My father is taking me. Mother kicked me out last week, she said that I was becoming a pain and she needed her space. It's okay though my father and his new wife took me in. We're back in Wisconsin, while my mother is soaking up all of the sun in California. Life is great, my dad treats me like an adult, and my step mother loves me more than my real mother. Unfortunately Ana is no longer in my life... She left after my parents divorced, now it's just me and my dog - Lola.

Classes couldn't end any sooner, I'm so hungry. I'm playing softball too, it's exhausting I eat like 10 times a day! My coach things I have a really good chance and getting a full ride scholarship to a university. I play first base and I pitch, I'm excited for this year. It's going really good. I think I'm finally going to make some friends. I finally have a boyfriend, he's 22, I know what your thinking, I'm only like 16 and I'm dating a 22 year old? Well age is only a number.

We are madly in love, we're both virgins and couldn't be any happier together! We plan on moving far far far away from my family, and having a million children! Life is truly amazing. I haven't cut myself for four months!

According to my therapist my relationship is not healthy and that me and Sam have to slow down, we're going to get hurt. Well she's dumb and he loves me. Classes are over, and I'm heading to my drivers test. Oh boy, I can't wait.

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