Falling Into Place

My First Poem; Chapter One

ι нαd тнe ɴoтe..

ι jυѕт coυldɴ'т opeɴ ιт, wнy coυldɴ'т ι?

wαѕ ι αғrαιd oғ ɢeттιɴɢ нυrт? вroĸeɴ?

ι ғιɴαlly нαd тнe ɢυтѕ тo opeɴ ιт:

ｍｙｓｔｅｒｙｉａ，

         I ｋｎｏｗ ｗｅ ｂｒｏｋｅ ｕｐ ａ ｗｈｉｌｅ ａｇｏ．． ａｎｄ ｗｅ ｈａｖｅｎ'ｔ ｔａｌｋｅｄ ｍｕｃｈ．． ｂｕｔ ｉｔ ｇａｖｅ ｍｅ ｔｉｍｅ， ｔｉｍｅ ｔｏ ｋｎｏｗ ｉ ｃａｎｎｏｔ ｇｏ ａｎ ｈｏｕｒ ｎｏｔ ｔｈｉｎｋｉｎｇ ａｂｏｕｔ ｙｏｕ．． ｉ ｋｎｏｗ ｙｏｕ'ｖｅ ｍｏｖｅｄ ｏｎ， ａｎｄ ｉ ｓｈｏｕｌｄ ｔｏ， ａｎｄ ｔｈｉｓ ｍｉｇｈｔ ｂｅ ｓｕｄｄｅｎ ａｎｄ ａｌｌ．． ｙｏｕ ｍｉｇｈｔ ｎｏｔ ｔｈｉｎｋ ｔｈｉｓ ｗａｙ ａｂｏｕｔ ｍｅ ｅｉｔｈｅｒ．． ｂｕｔ．． ｉ ｔｈｉｎｋ ｉ ｌｏｖｅ ｙｏｕ．．． ｉ ｗａｓ ｗｏｎｄｅｒｉｎｇ．． ｃｏｕｌｄ ｗｅ ｅｖｅｒ ｇｅｔ ｂａｃｋ ｔｏｇｅｔｈｅｒ？ ｉ'ｄ ｕｎｄｅｒｓｔａｎｄ ｉｆ ｙｏｕ ｓｔｉｌｌ ｗｏｎ'ｔ ｆｏｒｇｉｖｅ ｍｅ， ｉｔ'ｓ ｊｕｓｔ．．． ｉ ｒｅａｌｌｙ ｌｏｖｅ ｙｏｕ．．． ａｎｄ ｉ ｊｕｓｔ ｃａｎ'ｔ ｓｔｏｐ．

                                                                                                                   －Dｒａｋｅ

ι wαѕ ѕpeecнleѕѕ, ι dιdɴ'т-- ι coυldɴ'т тнιɴĸ..

Dιd ι ѕтιll lιĸe drαĸe?

ι мeαɴ.. нe dιd вreαĸ мe вeғore, αɴd ɴow тнιѕ?

A yeαr αɴd З мoɴтнѕ вeғore:

"ɴo мyѕтeryια, ι'м doɴe. ιт'ѕ jυѕт everyтнιɴɢ. ιт нαѕɴ'т worĸed oυт, αɴd ιт ɴever wιll." нe pαυѕed. "doɴ'т worry.. ιт'ѕ jυѕт.. ι ɴeed тιмe αwαy ғroм yoυ." ι ѕαт тнere αѕ нe wαlĸed αwαy.. ι jυѕт ѕαт тнere, cryιɴɢ. ɴo ѕтoppιɴɢ.. ι ɴever dιd αɴyтнιɴɢ wroɴɢ.. wнy woυld нe wαɴт тo leαve мe? lιĸe тнιѕ? wнeɴ нe'ѕ ĸɴowɴ ι've нαd мαɴy proвleмѕ wιтн мoɴey αɴd ғαмιly..

ι нαd cυт мy wrιѕт dαyѕ вeғore, ғroм wнαт ι нαve ɢoɴe тнroυɢн: depreѕѕιoɴ, ғαмιly αɴd ғrιeɴd proвleмѕ, αвυѕe..  мy вeѕт ғrιeɴd, clαre, wнo нαd αlwαyѕ вeeɴ тнere ғor мe тнroυɢн αɴyтнιɴɢ-- everyтнιɴɢ, тold мe тнαт ιғ ι ever ғeel lιĸe ѕoмeтнιɴɢ ιѕ вαd eɴoυɢн тo cυт.. wrιтe. ι нαd rαɴ нoмe υp ιɴтo мy вαтнrooм. ɢrαввιɴɢ мy rαzor вlαde ғroм υɴderɴeαтн мy ѕιɴĸ.. ι нαd тαĸeɴ ιт тo мy rooм.  oɴce ι нαd ιт oɴ тнe deѕĸ ιɴ ғroɴт oғ мe, αѕ well α pιece oғ pαper αɴd peɴ.. ι нαd wroтe α poeм.. 

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I smile, She cries. 

I am Brave, She's Shy.

I love, She is alone.

I am amazing, She is left unknown.

I'm Beautiful, She is a mess.

I am Happy, She is Depressed. 

I'm a Fake, She is Real.

Living the Lie i've been sucked into, She's Me, and I'm The Mask.

oɴce ι нαd ғιɴιѕнed wrιттιɴɢ, ѕнe нαd wαlĸed ιɴ, clαre нαd ѕeeɴ тнe wrιтιɴɢ ɴeхт тo тнe rαzor. ѕнe нαd rαɴ тo мe αɴd нυɢɢed мe, мαde мe ғeel lιĸe ѕoмeoɴe αcтυαlly cαreѕ.

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Authors Note (A/N):

The Poem: {Untitled}, Is written By me. The author, I know it's not all that good.. Could you leave a comment telling me how it is? It's my first try.. so.. Don't judge. Please?