FORBIDDEN (Draco Malfoy X Reader)

CHAPTER 32

I was fully aware that he hadn't said it back, but I was too tired to say anything. Now I think about it I wasn't really sure why I said it. He clearly didn't feel the same way. Then again it's Draco Malfoy we are talking about. Arrogant, emotionless seeming Draco Malfoy.

I laid in his arms for hours. I was so tired but I couldn't sleep, not now. I was overthinking it. Draco was fast asleep. I could hear his heavy breathing. I sat up, careful not to wake him up. He always looked so peaceful when he slept. The mask he wore everyday fell off and for once his blonde hair would be messy and falling across his face. I reached out and ran my fingers across his jaw lightly. A tear slipped and I pulled away and got up from his bed.

I went and sat by the window, that looked out to the lake. You could see all the creatures swimming around. It was calming. I curled up in a ball and watched the water ripple against the glass.

I wasn't sure why I let it get to me so much. Draco had always been closed off but something else seemed wrong. He wasn't telling me something. When I didn't have my memories I thought it was that, but he still seemed tense.

I leant my head against the cold glass and closed my eyes and tried to picture Draco happy, but he was rarely happy, even if he was he wouldn't tell you he was happy. he'd keep that mask on of his.

"Why are you sat over here ? It's 3 in the morning" Draco said in his sleepy voice, walking towards me rubbing his eyes.

"Thinking" I simply replied. I memorised him as he walked over. His body was memorising. Perfectly toned abs and chiselled V-line.

He sat opposite me and I turned and continued to watch the water.

"What are you thinking about?" He asked watching me.

"You" I replied, still watching the mermaids swim past the window.

"You've been crying, what's wrong ?"

"What's wrong with you ? somethings changed in you"

Draco flinched, and gulped.

"Y/N I-"

"Draco I don't want to hear your excuses"

"I'm just worried about you Y/N"

I looked up at him. His eyes were full of regret and his mouth was twitching as if he was about to start crying. He wasn't lying.

DRACO'S POV

A lie. More fucking lies. Of course I was worried about her. She was the source of all my problems. Well not quite all of them. Yet she seemed to believe it. She took in a sharp breath and crawled beside me and leant her head against my shoulder. I felt like sobbing, and that wasn't something I would ever do.

I wanted her, but I couldn't have her she was forbidden to me.

We stayed wrapped up together on the little window seat. She finally fell asleep. All she needed was reassurance and I had given it to her when I hadn't meant to.

I leant my head against the top of hers and fell asleep, tired of thinking about everything. We still had a few weeks left and I was going to spend every waking day with her.

I woke up before Y/N. She was still resting against me sleeping. I looked down at her and her face looked sad and she must have been crying again. I kissed her forehead and carried her back to bed.

When I stepped out of the bathroom she was lying awake in bed rubbing her eyes.

"Good morning" I said from the bathroom door.

She jumped, "Bloody hell, I thought you'd gone out"

"I wouldn't just leave you"

She turned over, ignoring me and pulled the covers right over head, groaning.

"You need to get up, we are going to get breakfast" I continued.

She clearly wasn't moving as she continued to groan about it being too early so I went over and pulled the sheets from her and picked her up in my arms and put her over my shoulder.

"Draco Lucius Malfoy put me the fuck down"

I laughed at her as she continued to kick her legs and punch my back, but I was double the weight and height off her and it had no effect.

I put her down and she crossed her arms. She looked adorable angry and I couldn't help but laugh. She continued to stand and stare at me as I laughed.

"Come here" I opened my arms and wrapped them around her, but she still refused to hug me.

After a minute she gave in and wrapped her arms around me.

"Let's go get breakfast" I whispered in her ear.

"Okay"

So we walked hand in hand to the great hall and I continued to spend as much time as I could with her, even if it was killing me.