The Life Of A Struggling Princess

Diary Entry 2

I made my back to my room and closed the heavy door. I looked at my room and how the colors of the kingdom was in every detail. The white blue curtains that blew slowly from the open doors and windows, the white couches that surround a small wooden table that had small pastries on a tray, and the white silk canopy that hung over the blue comforter and pillows. I walked over to my desk which was made out of wood and had quills, ink jars, some pieces of parchment that needed to be signed, and drawers filled with extra items. I sat down in the chair and opened the bottom drawer and pushed a small little button the opened a secret compartment. I took out the little jeweled diary that had a little red book marker in it. I turned to the next black page after my first diary entry.

Dear Dairy,

Today I had made my brother feel like I couldn't trust him but to be honest he does not know what my life is like. I have tried to make my ladies-in-waiting understand their place in royal life but they view me as a waste of space. I try to master many things a princess should be able to master when she becomes a queen. I can not needle point to save my life, I can not walk straight while balancing a book upon my head. I feel that these lessons and teachers were making my life difficult. I wanted to get to my leg chopped off because I feel that this will help limit my embarrassment. I have thought about running away but I realize that my father is the only person to make sure I can live a comfortable life and that I would not be able to survive  on my own. I feel that I am hopeless, that I am a burden on my family. I just don't know what my purpose in life is. I feel that I am alone in the world. I am afraid that once I live my  family's protection my life will end or that I will be forced to be put a side.  I am scarred to know what my future holds. I am scarred that I will not accomplish what I was meant to do. I look out my window at night wondering what it would feel like if I jumped, but knowing that I would break my family's heart. I just need guidance in my life and support. I know that pushing my family away is not helpful but I am alone in this world and I can not find the light anymore. Please all I want is to be treated like a human and a find a person who loves me for me.

Your lost princess

Isabella Margret

As I left my dairy in it's hidden location, I walked towards the long white tassels hanging in my room to summon my lady's to help get my ready for tonight's dinner.