healing heart. | D.M

4.

waking up to a dark room, a cold breeze and the breath of someone else's on the back of your neck wasn't something I was used to, but I could definitely get used to, draco had an alarm clock that sat on his nightstand, the time was only 5:55am, but I knew that I had to be in my own room to get dressed and ready for school.

I tried to shuffle out of his embrace, but he had a tight hold, "where are you going." He murmured, eyes still shut, his breathing was soft, I turned my head to stare at him, he looked angelic, his hair was messy, his cheeks were a beautiful color of pink.

"I have to go back to my dorm, i don't have clothes here." I whispered back to him, he let out a quiet groan. "you don't get to leave me when you want, darling." Draco's arm tightened around my waist, and if my stomach wasn't twisting enough, it twisted 100 times faster.

"but dra-" I was instantly cut off by the feeling of his lips on the back of my neck, planting soft kisses, my body shuddered and I surrendered, falling hopelessly into his kisses, he leaned up a bit more to find my throat, extending my neck out to him, I let out a breathy moan at the feeling of his soft lips against my flesh, "I don't want you to leave." Draco whispered against my skin. and the truth was, I didn't want to leave either. but I had no choice.

"I don't want to, but I have to Draco." I cupped his face into both of my hands, making him look at me, and I swore at that moment he was the most beautiful person to ever exist in this world.

"then go." Draco placed a kiss on my forehead, falling down back into his spot on the bed, releasing his hold of me. "will you come back to me?"

"if you let me, I'll see how your mood is when everyone's around malfoy." I gave him a smile, and removed myself from his soft bed, truth is I know he'll probably treat me differently when we're in public with everyone, and I guess I was so drunk on this moment that I didn't care.

my thoughts clouded my head as I left from the boys dormitory's, why did this feel so wrong but yet right at the same exact time, I made my way up to my dorm, opening the door. Blaise and Lydia were cuddled up inside of her small bed, and I couldn't help but smile at the both of them.

I just wanted to go back to sleep, and hopefully crumble away, so I didn't have to deal with tomorrow. but it was already 6:25 and I wanted to shower and actually put an effort into what I look like today, so i did exactly that, I needed a long hot shower the kind of shower that your fingers start to wrinkle, your skin is burning from the heat and you're extremely tired, that is the shower I like.

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we were all gathered around the great hall, Blaise and Lydia sitting next to each other, draco walked in with Astoria greengrass wrapped around his arm, and I felt my heart shatter into a million pieces, but I shook it off, it was draco malfoy we are talking about, could I have expected anything more?

Draco made his way to our table, and sat next to me, and Astoria on the other side of him, "so, supposedly I overheard Dumbledore speaking about a new transfer student." Blaise spoke, he didn't sound so excited, but that was Blaise. "Oh really, when?" I said back to Blaise, and he shrugged.

"Not sure, Dumbledore caught me sneaking and he stopped speaking." Blaise laughed, and Lydia laughed with him only because he was laughing. and I couldn't help but laugh at her, she was so obsessed.

"So when did this happen?" Lydia asked, looking at draco and Astoria. "Today actually," Draco spoke unamused, he kinda shrugged it off like it was nothing, turning his head to glance at me for a second, and I didn't even return the look.

"anyways, I'll see you guys later yeah?" I said getting up from the table, and they all nodded and I made my way out of the great hall, I heard footsteps following behind me, I wasn't sure if it was draco or not, but who can careless at this moment.

"Melia, wait!" Fred's voice boomed from the corridor. "Yes, Fred?" I turned to look at him, slowing the pace of my walking. "I'm really sorry, I hope you can forgive me, and we can start over." I shrugged at him. And gave him a nod. "Sounds fine, anything else I can help you with?" I raised an eyebrow.

"Actually, I was hoping if you would come with me, this weekend to hogsmeade." He looked hopeful, and he looked beautiful as well, I always had a soft spot for that boy. "sure, sounds great. cheers to starting over." I smiled at him, and began to walk away.

"I can't wait!" He yelled out, and I could've hear the excitement in his voice as he reentered the great hall. I laughed to myself and shook my head, class didn't start until another 40 minutes, but I needed to be as far away from draco as possible.

"A date? At hogsmeade?" Draco scoffed, speaking of the devil. I always somehow find myself getting caught by none other, yours truly. Draco malfoy. "Yes, problem malfoy?" I questioned. placing a hand on my hip, the other one biting my fingernails, a bad habit I always seemed to have.

"Yes, because you're mine princess, thought I made that clear when I marked you up?" Draco's voice was deep, you could've hear the jealousy in his tone. "hmm. I'm sorry, could you repeat a little louder, I don't think Astoria greengrass heard that." I scoffed.

"She's nothing to me." He admitted, and I laughed. "The same way I'm nothing to you, see you later malfoy." I started to walk away from him, when he pulled me back, pinning me against the wall.

"Yeah I guess you're right, you are nothing to me but a good and easy fuck for a slut like you." Draco spat in my face, and all I wanted to do was smack him in the face, but instead I had to bite down on my bottom lip to stop the tear that craved to roll down my face. "thanks, now let me go." I whispered, my voice was trembling, I was weak.

I let my guard down, I was used. I was weak, and now I was called a slut. How exciting?