FORBIDDEN (Draco Malfoy X Reader)

CHAPTER 35

With Draco gone it was hard. The full moon came around and again I couldn't control myself or my emotions. My scars burned and no amount of pain relief helped. I just had to endure it.

During the full moon I found it hard to keep anything down. The first time I ate I violently threw up and I haven't eaten since.

Things only got worse, Pansy had stayed at Hogwarts an I had her comments in my ear every five seconds. I didn't let her get to me. There was no point. She was just jealous.

I didn't receive a single letter from Draco. Not that I was thinking he would after everything that happened. I knew things were off.

Summer finally came to an end and I wasn't looking great. I had lost weight due to the full moon and never managed to gain it back and it was obvious. My cheekbones stuck out making me look more like a corpse.

I wasn't sure what to expect on the first day. I hadn't heard from Draco at all. What did that mean ? I was expecting the worst.

I woke up dreading it all. I slowly got ready for breakfast. I had the day until everyone arrived later at dinner.

I spent most of the day in the library, reading trying not to worry about everything to much. There was no point, I couldn't change whatever was going to happen, I just had to get on with it. Easier said than done. As the hours ticked by my anxiety grew worse and I debated skipping dinner. Not like I would eat anyway, especially not today.

The time finally came and I made my way to the great hall. By the time I got there everyone was filtering in so I just joined the crowd. I sat at the very end of the Slytherin table. I just wanted to be left alone. My hands were shaking and I felt like I was going to start hyperventilating. I kept my head down and put my shaking hands over my mouth to try and control my breathing.

I felt a hand on my back and someone sit beside me.

"Are you alright Y/N ?" Blaise asked.

I nodded my head, willing him to go away. I knew he was just trying to help but I just wanted to be left alone.

"I'll leave you alone" He removed his hand from my back and stood up to go and sit with his group of friends.

I kept my head down while I tried to calm myself down. No one noticed, no one ever did, When I eventually looked up everyone was eating. I looked down the table and at the other end Draco was sat with Blaise, Pansy, Crabbe and Goyle. He wasn't engaging in anything they were saying. He was clearly deep in thought.

For the rest of the time I kept my head down, I didn't eat anything, just the thought of eating made me feel sick. When it was time to leave I waited until everyone had left so I could walk back undisturbed. As per usual the walls started to shake. The school really needed to do something about that, it's a safety hazard.

I walked into the common room, it was empty so I slumped down on the sofa and curled into a tight ball and burst into tears. I wasn't sure why exactly but I needed to let it out. I was overwhelmed with anxiety and panic about things I couldn't even control.

"What's your problem ?" A dark voice spoke.

I looked up to find Draco stood in the corner with some sort of drink in his hand.

"How long have you been stood there ?" I mumbled.

"Since you walked in"

I didn't say anything and just got up and made my way for the stairs.

"We should break up"

I stopped at the bottom of the stairs for a seconds, wondering what to say. Instead I said nothing and continued up the stairs.

I made it to my room and instantly had the urge to throw up. I ran to the bathroom and threw up but it was mostly blood. I burst into tears. What the fuck is happening to me ?

I decided to go to the hospital wing before I drop dead. I cautiously made my way down the stairs but luckily Draco was gone. I made my way towards the wing and noticed Draco walking down one of the corridors. Where's he going at this time ? I didn't really care and carried on to the infirmary.

DRACO'S POV

When I walked into the great hall she was sat at the end. She looked bloody awful. She had obviously lost weight. Her head was down and I think she was having a panic attack.

Let the girl interfere and she will die.

I walked past and sat with the rest of the group even though it was the last thing I wanted.

When Dinner was over I waited in the common room for Y/N. She came in last and slumped on the sofa. It was like her body gave out on her and she curled into a ball and cried.

I felt terrible for what I was about to do but it had to be done.

"We should break up"