Dear Bria [z.m.]

Eighteen: How Are You?

January 25,2014

10000 Southwoods Boulevard, Long Beach, California

Long Beach, California

Dear Bree,

It's been a week since I sneaked in your bedroom without your knowing. Have you seen the gray sweatshirt that I left on your bedside table? The one you love and the one that you're always borrowing from me before? Well, i've decided just to give it to you now that we're in separate ways already so you'll still feel i'm there with you.

Have you also seen the caricature of us when we had our first date? I drew that for that one week because I really miss you and we both know that that's a very significant day for the both of us because that's the day when I found out that you want your burger without lettuce, just tomatoes. Plus, you want your burger to have a ketchup on the patty. I can observe all your little things that you're doing that day.

I kissed you a farewell last night, in case you've felt it but you're in a deep slumber so I think you didn't feel it.

But don't worry, I won't stop writing you just because we broke up. I'll still write and collect these letters, so that one day I can give these to you sealed in a box filled with the significant things.

Love you always,

Zayn

Hastily, I grab his sweatshirt inside my luggage and smell it and hug it. To be honest, what Zayn said in that previous letter is true, I can feel like he's around me whenever i'm hugging this sweatshirt of his. The caricature was framed in my bedroom in my own house in California. It's just there, has a special place in my room.

I looked in the box and there are just two letters left. The half of me wants to read it already to really find out what he has to say. The other half of me still doesn't want to read those because I don't want this to end. Reading these letters made me feel like at ease and it's like i'm watching a television series because every letter tells a story of Zayn and I. It's not a sappy love story, it's a unique and one of a kind of love story. But the only problem is... They didn't have a happily ever after. Well, is this television series kind of story of Zayn and I is still an ongoing one? Will we still find our happily ever after?

February 20,2014

10000 Southwoods Boulevard, Long Beach, California

Long Beach, California

Dear Bria,

After months of our breakup, you called me! I didn't expect that you'll call because after my hundreds of voice mails and private messages to you, you finally called me!

"H-Hi" you stuttered, still hesitant and nervous if you'll still continue talking.

"Hello" I responded but deep inside i'm having a hope that you'll talk about us and we can try again but my mind battles with my thinking because you chose your career than your private life. I got no hatred for that, trust me, I fully understand why you did that, it's for your own good.

There's a complete silence after that and I initiated the conversation.

"So, how are you?" I ask and you quickly replied with a quick "I'm good. And you?" I replied with a "I'm also good"