I have a friend. He's frikin awesome if I do say so myself. I can't imagine living without him, I'd be a wreck without him. He can easily make my laugh or smile on a bad day. He doesnt mind my crazy ideas or psychotic nature. He's 𝓿𝓮𝓻𝔂 adorable and even cute sometimes. I simp for this person 24/7 which probably isn't good but who cares. I dont know if he knows this but I care about him more than a human is supposed to care about another person. I love this person so much that I would give him anything including my life. I would gladly let this person tie me up in their basement or kidnap me, I would be ecstatic for them put me in a maid outfit and call me theirs...Like that's going to happen. For now I can only fantasize. Although I haven't known him for a long time it seems like we've been friends forever. At this point I dont even think he's friend, he's family. If I were completely honest he's better than all my family combined. He will never know this but everytime he texts me I get all warm and happy. This person is my main source of happiness and he makes me feel like I'm wanted and special, like I'm not garbage and a waste of time. Most days we will talk for hours, one time we had a conversation about something but if I give this to the person he would know this was about him if I said what we were talking about, anyways back to the important thing, we were talking and after I was on the ground gasping for air, That day I couldn't stop laughing. Sometimes at night I'll stare at the ceiling and just think about this person, hours and hours of thinking about this boy. Being friends with this boy has been a real adventure, I think I've learned alot and I couldn't be happier. I thinks it's so hard find a best friend because I already took the best one. I haven't met anyone quite like this person. I think the reason I like him so much is because I found the traits that I don't have in him. Another cool thing is whenever he makes me happy by saying something it just sticks with me for the rest of the day or I think about it when I'm having a not so good day. Sometimes when we talk i forget about everything, like nothing else matters except for me and him. Before I knew that he existed I was fighting against my anxiety, sadness, fear and lack of self confidence in a 1 v.s 100 war. When he came along he magically made alot of all the bad stuff disappear, sure I still cry and i still sit on the floor thinking about how everyone would be better off without me but this boy makes it better. Since he came I have cried less from sadness and cried more from laughing. I dont think I could ever explain how important this person is. If there was a word that meant super duper very important than I would use it, but even then I dont think it would be enough. This boy means the world to me, If someone offered me the whole multiverse to end our friendship I wouldn't. But at the end of the day I realize it's just me fighting my own demons, no one can really help me with that. Almost everyday I think about how much better this person would be without me. I've tried convincing him that he'd be better off without me and that no one would notice if i left. Everytime i say that he says he would notice and that he would miss me, for some reason that always makes me cry, not happy or sad cry, crying without emotion. I don't know why but only he can do that to me. This person has a special place in my heart. Not as a friend, not family, not the person I love, Just that person. The person that means the world to me, the person that will somehow always be there exactly when you need them. its magic really, a wizards work. idk if he will ever read this but yk whatever. if he did i would die like *does seizure movements*
