Changed destiny for you

Chapter 2: For those we lost and loved. (15x19)

After who knows how long Dean collected himself off the bunker floor and called Sam back. Sam had picked up in an instant with obvious relief. It did make Dean feel better, hearing that Sam was okay. Him and Jack were if he was honest the only reason left he kept fighting. 

His body went on autopilot as he exited the bunker and entered his car. Driving off with this numbness inside of his head and body. It didn’t feel real. None of it did. Like a bad dream he had yet to wake up from. The streets were empty and apocalyptic. There was no one. Not in the cars, not in the shops. 

He was truly alone with only his thoughts to keep him company. And oh boy those thoughts were horrible company. His anger boiled like it never had before. Chuck or… God had done the absolute worst. Thanos snapping away the whole population because of what? Boredom? Like a kid getting sick of their toys.

But Dean was done being angry. He was done feeling hatred all the time. He just wanted… a break, happiness if it was too much to ask? He has played his part long enough. He didn’t want to be a soldier in Chuck’s or his dad’s game. 

So in that moment surrounded by nothing but silence he decided he was going to change his life around. Find that happiness, make Castiel's sacrifice worth it. He would make his own ending. One that everyone he loved deserved. Not one that other people chose for him. That new burning passion kept him driving and fueled his determination. 

Before he knew it he arrived at their meeting point. Seeing Sam and Jack gave him some sort of reassurance, like he was not alone after all. 

He closed baby’s door behind him and prepared himself for the ~emotions~. 

He had no idea how to tell Jack that Cas died because of him. That kid was basically his son. 

Dean let out a low sigh and stood his ground. 

“Everyone is gone.” Sam said, looking at his brother for answers that he didn’t have. 

“Did you see anyone on the way here?” 

“No…” Dean replied. Thinking about all the people they lost, their family... He had been too preoccupied thinking about Cas that he forgot that they didn’t just lose him but everyone they cared about. 

“I couldn’t save anybody” Sam began, Dean recognised that tone and feeling. He knew better then to tell Sam that it wasn’t his fault because he wouldn’t believe it either way. “Billy-”

“It wasn’t Billy, it was Chuck.” Dean explained. 

“What-”

“Where is Cas?” Jack asked out of the blue. There it was. The question Dean had been dreading. Just hearing Cas name out loud hit him in the gut. 

“Dean?” Sam asked. 

Dean could already see the look forming on Jack’s face. 

 “He saved me.” Dean closed his eyes and opened them again with a shake of his head. Like he still couldn’t believe that Cas did that for him.
 For him…

“Billy was coming after us and Cas summoned the empty... It took her and it took him.” 

“no…” Jack said and Dean met his eye. Jack tried his very best to stay strong, but Dean knew it wasn’t easy. Cas was like a father to Jack. Hell Cas was Jack’s father. 

Jacks face was a mix between confusion, anger and grief. He leaned forward and let out a shaky breath, tears welling up in his eyes. 

“Jack…” 

Jack wiped his tears away and took a step back. “I-... I need a moment.” He said before walking off. 

Deans eyes followed Jack until he dropped them to stare at his shoes. He could feel Sam’s eyes piercing into his soul.
 “Shit-” Dean said as he gave a stone by his shoe a soft kick.