Love's a Game, Wanna Play? (Jonathan Toews)

Chapter 11

CHAPTER 11

That's why Jonathan called at 10 the other night! He just finished a game!

Wow, I am really oblivious.

I pissed. Honestly I'm mad at myself for not realizing this and I'm mad at Jonathan for not telling my something huge that is apart of his life!

I knew since the day I met him that only bad things would come from him. I tried to tell myself to stay away or I will get hurt but I ignored myself. I let my emotions take control. And now I'm here.

That's it Leah! Your only contact with him will be at yoga. This is the best thing you can do for yourself and him. You don't want to hurt anymore than you do now. Just stay away from him because if you don't you know you will go off on him. Just say away.

I give my self a little pep talk.

I grab some pjs and put them on, then tucking myself under the coves.

*****

I wake up peacefully.

I slowly crawl out of bed moping to the bathroom. I throw my hair in a bun and brush my teeth then put on some yoga pants and Nike hoodie.

I walk out of my bedroom and walk to the kitchen reaching for a bowl of cereal. I decide to let myself have lucky charms because of what I found out the other night.

Eating the cereal, I drown myself in my thoughts.

Am I overreacting? I don't think so. Jonathan is a freaking superstar and don't bother to tell me! But then, we weren't even dating or anything like that. Just a couple meals out together. Except who calls a girl late at night and invites her to a bar. Friends don't just do that. You only do that if you like them.

God, what am I going to do?

I finish the rest of the bowl then leave it in the dishwasher.

I grab my gym bag and head out to the gym to clear my head.

I walk out of the building then get inside my car.

Th drive goes by quickly and I go into the locker room to switch out my hoodie for a tank top.

I walk out and go turn the treadmill. Then I put "New Romantics" on by Taylor Swift.

I start to run. Fast. I desperately need to clear my mind. I will figure it out. I just don't know how or when.

In life nothing stops. Everything comes to end. No matter how perfect the moment is or how absolutely horrible it is. This time now, this whole situation will end. I just have to be patient.

I still am furious at Jonathan for not telling me but I don't want to be mad at him. I want to spend all of my time with him. I can't do that. Jonathan likes and dates models, not your average Chicago girl.

I need to get over him. Nothing can or will happen between us.

*****

Today I was able to sleep in. I truly think sleeping is the best therapy. I mean, how can you not love diving in a cozy bed and passing out? Well I guess that is a different story if you have nightmares.

I reach for a banana, taking my time peeling it.

Today is the day I have to face reality. Jonathan is coming home today and we have yoga tonight. He doesn't have a lie I know or that I am upset with him.

I keep telling myself that I have to let him know and I wont believe any of the crap he will say to defend him self.

If I stick to that plan and have two or three sessions go by this whole thing will be over.

I just have to stay away from him.

And if I do, my life will go completely back to normal.

I do a couple more miles then head over to the weights.

After about an hour or so of weights my arms feel like noodles. It literally hurts to hold my phone in my hand.

I walk over to the showers to freshen up. Once I finished my shower I slipped on and shirt and sweat pants.

I make my way over to my office and sit on my chair. I don't have much work to get done so I grab my phone and bring up Instagram.

Time truly seems to fly when I am on that app. I start to fidget in my office desk chair. I really need to get a small couch in here for times like this.

I guess I will be taking a trip to Ikea soon.

My stomach starts to growl so I reach for my snack stash. I pull out a little bed of pretzels.

Before I know it I get totally absorbed in my phone.

*****
I hear a few knocks on my door.

"Leah,"

I look up to see Jessica.

"Yeah?"

"You okay? You have been in here for hours." She asks me.

This is honestly why I love Jess. She knows when something is wrong.

"Yeah, I totally fine! Why would you ask?" I ask her.

She walks over to my snack stash and opens it up.

"Because half of this stash is gone!"

"How do you know I have that? And how do you know have of its gone?!" I ask in complete shock.

"Well, your trash can and I possibly grab snacks when you are not here," She says causally.

"So that is why I have been missing my peanut granola bars!" I laugh.

"Ok so seriously, what's up?" Jess asks.

"Jonathan," I say dramatically growing my head back.

"What happened?"

"He is a freaking NHL hockey player. You know what the NHL is? National Hockey League! He is some superstar athlete!" I tell her.

"Well isn't that kinda a good thing?" She asks.

"I guess but he didn't tell me at all! Like nothing! How long was he planning on keeping it a secret? I would've found out sooner or later!" I say.

"Good point, this is something huge and he wouldn't bother telling you!"she pauses."Well I have some bad news then,"

"What?" I ask.

"He is coming in 15 minutes,"

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I apologize for not updating a lot lately! I have been writing a lot lately. Basically, I have been creating a stock pile of chapters!

There is so much more to coming in this story. I think you all are going to really like it!

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