Ysa's
Shoot, that one-million-dollar question.
A few moments of silence enveloped the atmosphere in Brett's car. Parang may dumaang anghel sa aming harapan. Maging ang aking pag-iyak ay natigil dahil sa kanyang tanong. He only remained staring on the driveway, while I was stuck staring at him.
Why ask me during this time of truth, Brett?
"The answer is as simple as yes or no, Ysa." Tumitig siya sa akin pabalik. "I just want to hear one of those."
"I-I'm..." I cannot stand the weight of his stare, so I turned away. I sighed. "I'm not sure."
Naitigil niya ang kanyang kotse, dahilan upang mapalingon ako sa kanya. Nakatingin na naman siya sa aming harapan, walang imik. Isinandal niya ang kanyang ulo sa steering wheel habang nakapikit at bumuntong-hininga.
"I'll be patient," bulong niya. "Aasa ako ro'n."
I clutched at my trousers.
"Just tell me if you need more time to think."
'Yon ang huli niyang sinabi bago lumihis mula sa aming bahay.
I am now lying in my bed and staring at the ceiling of my room. Hindi na ako bumalik sa aking office kahit na maaga akong naihatid ni Brett. Ilang oras na akong ganito, nag-iisip ng desisyon para sa sitwasyon namin.
Should I go for it?
And if I do, is there a guarantee that it will be deceit-free? Napakahirap na magtiwala sa isang taong minsan na itong sinira.
However, I already know the truth behind those actions. It wasn't his intention. He told me it wasn't. He even put himself in great risk against his parents' will.
He put himself in great risk, yet why can't I?
Ipinikit ko ang aking mga mata. I tried to remember the times we treasured each other the most. Kailangan kong kumbinsihin ang sarili ko sa magiging desisyon ko.
The way he respected my feminism.
My laugh at the silly things he did in random situations.
The feeling of his passionate kisses.
Many times killing me with such pasabogs.
Stayed beside me throughout my journey to becoming a successful woman.
How I drowned in my own tears.
When he hid the truth to create a distance between me and his greedy parents.
If Brett thought that I was worth the risk, how much more is he?
I felt tears cascade down my cheeks. My heart ached. Sinubukan kong alalahanin ang iba pa, ngunit hindi ko na nagawa dahil sa aking paghagulgol.
I long for those. I admit that I do.
Tumingin ako sa oras. It was already past eleven. Kinuha ko ang phone na nasa aking gilid at agad na hinanap ang number ni Brett sa contacts.
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