Blue And Grey [COMPLETED] • mistikenigma

Chapter One

Chapter One

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Here comes the demon. I breath in and out slowly, hindi ko sinubukang idilat ang mga mata ko dahil baka kung anu-anong anino nanaman ang makikita ko. I tried moving my thumb slowly, I didn't bother moving my feet and arms, sa tatlong taon kong naikukulong sa sitwasyon na ito, sisiw na lang saakin ang makatakas. Minsan.

Nang tuluyan akong makawala ay habol habol ko na ang hininga ko. Napasandal ako sa headboard ng kama tsaka tinignan ang katabi ko sa kama, si Angge, kapatid ko. 

My demon doesn't like visiting me in my dreams, but he likes choking me in my sleep. When I first experienced sleeping paralysis, takot na takot ako. I was only thirteen for pete's sake! The first time I experienced it, it feels like someone is stopping me to move. Hindi ko mabuksan ang mga mata ko, may mga nakahawak sa magkabilang kamay at paa ko. The thirteen year-old me doesn't know what to do. I have no idea what is it. Ilang ulit iyong nangyari hanggang sa kaya ko nang ibuka ang mga labi ko, pero walang salita ang lumalabas doon. I shouted and yell, ni kaunting tinig ay wala. I was so scared.

As years passed by, it's getting worse. I had experience hearing voices, deep voices, laughs and shouts and yells. Siguro ang pinakanakakatakot ay iyong tuwing sinusubukan kong ibuka ang mga mata ko ay may mga anino akong nakikita. After two years of experiencing it, I finally had the courage to search it online.

Sleeping Paralysis.

The fucking demon in my sleep won't just let me end my sleep peacefully.

Of course, I got scared. I also search it on facebook because some people might've shared their experiences with sleeping paralysis. Hindi naman ako nabigo, I tried following other people's or stranger's advices. It worked. And I've been doing those practices in a year now. The breathing exercise helped me a lot to calm myself in the middle of that situation. The thumb thingy helps me to feel myself.

Do you know what scares me the first time I've experienced this thing? I always woke up at 3AM, I'm not trying to scare you. Balewala na iyon saakin since it also happens to me whenever I'm sleeping at daytime. Guess it just visits anytime he wants too. Who knows?

Kinuha ko ang tumbler ko sa side table at uminom ng tubig. This one also helps me. Minsan kasi ay nahihila ulit ako ng tulog and drinking water makes me awake. Isa sa pinakanatatakot ako ay sa tuwing makakatakas ako sa pagkahawak nila sa akin, nahihila pa din nila ako ulit upang matulog. 

Nang matapos kong uminom ay nahiga ulit ako at yumakap sa kapatid ko bago ulit ituloy ang naudlot na tulog. 

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"Are you okay?" Tanong ng kaibigan ko, si Starr.

"Okay lang, medyo hindi lang ako nakatulog ng maayos kagabi." Sambit ko.

"Ano sa tingin mo ang dahilan at nagi-sleeping paralysis ka?" Tanong ni Mira.

"Lack of sleep, maybe." Sagot ko at huminga ng malalim.