Season Series : Before March 4

CHAPTER 23

Day 28
March 2

Back when I was 5 years old.
Other kids like me dream to live in a castle.
While I dream to finally go home.

Back when I was 8 years old.
Other kids enjoyed their ice cream.
While I get used with my bitter medicines.

Back when I was 10 years old.
Other kids started learning from their bruises.
While I got my third surgery.

Back when I was 12 years old.
Other kids started having their own friends.
While I stay aside.

Back when I was 14 years old.
I got my final surgery.
Months after that, me and she.
We had our first eye contact.
I met a girl name Alexies Ty.
They called her bully.
They were all scared by her presence.
She had her piercing.
While I wear glasses.
She was involve in a gang fight.
I got my medals.
She was quite famous.
I was always hiding with my books.
They made me scared.
I thought bad thing at them.
I hated them.

Now that I am 17
I saw that same woman again.
I learn that she was dying of cancer.
She made me her slave.
I hate it.
Until I learn to love it.
I can no longer live without it.
I was the one who should teach her.
But she was clever than I am.
She said limitations are tragedy.
And I was amused.
So I live the way I wanted.
Breaking rules.
I met new friends.
They were lovely than my sunflower.
I grew comfort.
But it wasn't easy.

Because in the end, truth always win.

In life cases like mine, there's no such thing as happy ending. At the end, there is no happily ever after.

No one can survive this bitter life full of limits.

No... there is no such thing that can stop this curse.

No one. Not even ourselves.

Now that I learn what life is all about.
To break rules and norms.
Burn limits.
But that's when I lost her.
My air supply.
That no one could change her position in my heart.

Back when I was 5 I wished for home.
She is now my haven.
Back when I was 8 I get to used with medecine.
But it was more comfortable with that amazona.
Back when I was 10 I didn't cry with my surgery...
But I cried hard for her.
Back when I was 12 I was desperate for friends.
She did gave me a gang.
Back when I was 14, my heart was stable.
She broke it, and it was magical.
Now I am 17
We parted ways...

Not knowing.... not able to tell what my heart says.

How much I love her. I love my Alexies. My universe.

And it will never change, even if my heart dies.

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Day 29
March 3

Umiling ang doctor kay Mama bilang resulta ng mga naging pagsusulit saaking katawan at puso. Hagulhol ni Mama ang namayani sa buong kwarto habang ako ay tumulala lamang sa labas.

"It's getting worst. I'm sorry, we'll try our best to find some best for this situation as early as possible."

"H-How bad?"

"I'm sorry."

Marahang tinutulak ni Mama ang wheelchair pabalik sa kwarto sakay ang walang buhay na ako. Lantang gulay ang aking katawan at pakiramdam ko isang imik nalamang... tuluyan ng tapos ang lahat.

Matatapos na ang lahat, wala man lang siyang paramdam.

"Hawakan mo ang iyong dibdib, pakiramdam mong mabuti at isipin, sabay mong itanong, okay kapa?" I stop the chair as soon as I heard those words coming from a room full of patience listening to a girl preacher. "Sobra ka nabang nahihirapan? Sobra naba ang pagsubok? Nakakamatay naba? Pakiramdam mo ba napuno na ito ng lason at ilang segundo nalang malulunod kana?"