Cold As Ice

Cold As Ice #1

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Oakley's POV

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Ever since i was a little girl, I've always loved the cold. Why? It probably has to do with the fact that my mother loved the winter season. I remember that every Christmas she would decorate in white, blue, pink, purple and red. She really loved the icy blue color and white. She would always wear those two colors.  Even our house was blue and white. I loved my mother very much, i still do.

During my childhood, i remember we would travel to her home state, Idaho. It would always snow in the winter and I loved it because we would always play in the snow and have snowball fights. Then we would sit by the fire place and drink hit cocoa and watch Christmas movies like home alone. But soon that happy world soon came crashing down.

My mom was killed.

One day she had to do errands and I didn't want to go because I had lots of homework, we'll it seem like it at the time, but went along. We had to go the bank so my mom could exchange her paycheck into cash. I had my headphones in , blasting music. The bank was robbed and 3 innocent people died. My mom died protecting a child who was shot at.

That day my dad became a different man. Yes he loves me but he became distant.  He wasn't his usual self, but it was a time when I needed my dad, my protector. Dinner would become quiet and soon we became aquatences. It was like we weren't family.

I cried myself to sleep for years. That's when i changed, i became a different me. I was still me with a bit of attitude and I had build brick walls around my heart. I didn't want to to hurt more than I already was. Soon dad and I didn't talk anymore. I started doing drugs, self harming to feel something else beside pain.

I fell in love with one of the guy I would do drugs with. He was my druggie best friend. We dated about a year and I had fallen in love with him. He too passed away from a drug overdose 3 weeks after giving him my virginity. Soon I build up more walls  around my heart and started to become distant. I still passed school with high A's but I became disrespectful person. I didn't care about anyone, I didn't care about myself either.

Then entering high school I made two friends who have dealt with pain also. They understood why i am the way i am. We became the three musketeers and trouble makers. During sophomore year, dad became a new person.  He started getting involved more in my life but that made me suspicious and I created more walls.

Dad had meet Francesca, my step mom. She was a really sweet, Christian woman, who had changed my father. At first I hated her because she was replacing my mom.

I still didn't know my dad was going to propose. And when he did, my world turn upside again. They got married in the start of my junior year. Soon she became pregnant and had my little sister Britta. When she was born it completely changed my world.

I love that little girl.

She's the only person I show my real emotions beside Lilith and Jeremiah. I still act cold around dad and Frances. My life has changed so much it would be impossible for my walls to be broken down. I'm currently playing video games with my best buds.

We are playing GTA and we're having a blast. Dad is at work and Frances went to go buy groceries, so she told me to watch Britta. She is currently laying in her rock n play sleeper. She is just looking at me sucking her thumb. She was born at 7 months and was in an incubator for 2 months till she gained weight. I carried her and rocked her in my arms while lily and Jer played. "So guys ready to start our senior year"

I nodded, ready to leave high school and enter college. I still don't know what to study but i know i love writing so i might become a teacher or something. Maybe but i still don't know. "Me too, can't wait to move out" lily said with a laugh. Soon Britta fell asleep and i went to lay her down in her crib. I brought the baby monitor with me just in case she woke up. 'Beep' we all look at our phones but it wasn't mine or lily's. It was Jeremiah and he made an annoyed facial expression.

"Guys I got to go, I forgot to do my chores this morning and mom arrive from work and saw and now I got to go finish them". Once he left, about an hour later lily left too. I was alone and bored. Britta was still asleep so i decided to watch some reruns of bones on TV. I heard Britta whine on the baby monitor. I go and check on her and she's awake looking around.

I smile at her and got her out of the the crib and sat down with her on the couch. I was getting tired so I laid on the the couch and Britta in top of me. Before i knew it i closed my eyes but i secured my arms around her. I feel someone shaking me. I'm laying on my stomach and i picked up my head, "come on sleeping beauty, it's dinner time". I got up and notice wasn't here, i panicked but didn't show it. "Where's Britta" "Frances is breastfeeding her" i nod and reluctantly went downstairs to the kitchen.

I sat and ate my food quietly. After i finished i put my dirty dishes in the sink and went to my room. I laid in my bed looking up, not caring to change. I'm currently laying on my side and grab the photo on my nightstand. It was a picture of mom and i covered in snow smiling happily at the camera.

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