All I ever wanted was to die

Starting with Despair

I'm not crazy.
I'm just hurt.
By the disgusting, horrible people on this planet.
No friends.
No family.
I'm the walking definition of despair.
'Why not just kill yourself?' Is what they ask.
I would, but there is just one problem.

..I can't die...

A few words that describe school.
Learning.
People.
Laughing.
Bullies.

I've lived my life without family. Or anyone to call family at that. I kept my distance from people. Eventually I was labelled 'weird'. I was bullied. Beat. Everyone laughs. No one ever try's to look like they care. Later on in middle school I was labelled 'freak'.
Nothing ever changes. They never give up. It only gets worse.
This year, in high school, I feel like I'm basically on the verge of extinction. So I went to they roof one day. Some girls where there eating lunch and whispering about me. I smiled at them as I stepped onto the ledge of the roof. They bolted up. One came closer to me as the other ran for a teacher. "You don't have to do this!" The girl said to me. "Yes I do,"I said as I looked up to the beautiful blue sky with a few clouds,"I have no one. I have nothing," I told her. I closed my eyes as I slowly start falling forward.
Something's not right. I'm not falling. I opened my eyes to see I'm in mid-air. I pulled out my knife and stabbed myself in the heart.. But the blade broke on my chest. I looked up to the sky. "Why won't you let me die?!" I yelled out. "I have no place in this planet!"."They'll all just laugh more if I don't!" The girl grabbed my hand and pulled me back to the roof and into a gentle embrace.
"I won't laugh"

I looked to the girl. I have never seen her at this school. She is new. She doesn't know about the bullying. I started to cry. She kept her embrace. I pushed myself away from her and stared for a few seconds and ran home.

Lier. You will laugh. Just like everyone else.