INNOCENCE

Prelude

PRELUDE

            My beliefs are everything to me. Ever since I was a child, my words and statements were said with no sign of neglect. I spoke freely – I let my mouth say everything to people. I couldn’t lie. Lying was something that I was capable of, but it’s something I refuse to do. I believed that saying the truth is the best choice and the last choice when it comes to happenings in life – significant or not.

            I know that words are powerful. People from my town knew me not just for the family I belonged to, but also because of how I speak my mind out and state the obvious. I spoke what my mind says and tells the truth, apparently they didn’t like it. They didn’t like the way I put my insights on words – they didn’t like how I know so many things and is not afraid on stating or sharing them to others. They didn’t like it. My words were too firm, they were too strong, they were too fierce, they were too blunt, they were too smart – my words to them, were always “too much”.

            I tried. Heaven knew I tried hard as I can to lie, to pretend, to hide what I really think and what my opinion is; just to make them like me – just for them to accept me. But no matter how hard I tried to lessen the truthfulness of my words, they still couldn’t accept a person like me. Too blunt and perfect, they say.

            Everything was too much for them. My existence on most people was an annoyance – insecurity. The time came when I got tired of trying, and just let them judge me. I got so tired that, in purpose, I decided to not care. I decided to just please myself and the people who loved me. I got so sick of trying that I just let the words flow freely, like the waves in the ocean.

            I let them flow – the words that other people pertain were curses.

I let myself be me – the person they think that corrupts people.

 

CHAPTER ONE

Looking Back is up next.