Completely unaware it's you

1- The Beginning of Everything.

On a cold breezy day at the beginning of an English Autumn my life is about to be flipped upside down as I pack the rest of my belongings into the back of my small but practical car to move across the country.

My life was about to change, and I can't decide if it will be the best change, or the worst. As I back out of my drive way I look back at my Mum and Sister one last time fighting back the tears. I give them one last wave before I drive away out of sight.

I'm driving approximately 200 miles down the country from my familiar home city in the North West to a coastal city in the South East of England for University. What I'm most scared about is the change of scenery, I'm so comfortable with my surroundings back home, With the people I've grown to love over my 18 years of life. But here I am, taking the biggest risk I've ever taken to move away from everything I've ever known, everyone I've ever known.

I'm treating this experience as a fresh start. A chance to get away from the demons of my past and to let my true self out and be free. A smile grows on my face as I begin to imagine life without worrying about what people thought of me, I can be whoever I want to be. I'm not standing for any bullshit anymore, I've got no time for judgmental Arseholes, i'm about to step into an unfamiliar environment, but I'm so ready. bring it on.

A smile grew on my face from that thought, maybe I will be okay.

So, while I'm on this long drive down south, Let me take this time to introduce myself properly. My name is Sophie Hardy, some people call be Soph, others prefer Sophie so take your pick, I've never had a preference really. I have dark healthy hair that stops just above my belly button. I have greenish eyes and a small amount of freckles, but they tend to only come out in the sun, we are moving into Autumn now so they won't make an appearance for a few months yet.

I would like to say I am a creative individual, but that isn't really shown in my style, I dress for comfort because, well, I'm lazy. That is one thing I would like to experiment with when I'm in Uni, I'd like to mix up my style a bit, find out what I feel most confident wearing. In regards to my family, Since the age of 8 years old its just been me, My Mum, Eleanor and Sister, Rosie, who is only 15 months older than me. I believe I have other siblings now from my dads side of the family, But since he left he hasn't tried to contact me so neither have I. He is the one that left therefore it is his responsibility to make the effort to contact me and Rosie if he wishes to. But he hasn't so that is that.

As for a relationship, I have been single for 18 years, and I can't imagine that will change anytime soon, well i know it won't, because I won't let it. I'm moving away for an education and to focus on myself, I'm not letting some boy ruin that for me.

I used to actively search for Love, I used to want it so bad, just as you read about in the cheesy books and watch in the latest films. I used to believe you could only truly be happy when you are in love. Obviously that isn't the case and you can be perfectly happy with your own company, which is exactly what I intend to do while at University. I'm no longer looking for love, because I know, that when the time is right it will happen. I know it will. But for now, I am going to enjoy my freedom and live my live just as I want to, by myself.

After a long and quite frankly boring car journey. I arrived on campus, my new home for the next 3 years.

I park up outside my new building and take a big breath in to mentally prepare myself to bring all my boxes up 3 floors one by one all by myself. How fun.

After dodging in and out of hundreds of my fellow students doing exactly the same thing I was doing I finally threw my last box onto my bed and fell along side it with exhaustion.

The thought of now having to unpack all this makes me feel even worse. I sigh a final time before getting up off my ass and opening the first box. Sooner I start Sooner I finish.