Tell me you are sorry

Chapter 7 - This is my explanation

Harry´s POV:

I never would have thought, I was gonna hold her like this again. I thought I had broken her heart, when I left her that morning. But here I am, holding my Alice in my arms again.
”Thank you so much for coming today, Alice. It means a lot to me..”
”Of course Harry. There was no doubts. I really care about you, you know?”
I smiled at her, while pulling her hair back. She smiled back.

”But uhm..” I sighed.
”What? Something wrong?”
”No, not at all. It´s just.. The weather is getting worse, and I don´t think you should drive home, in a weather like this.. ”
”Sooo, what are you suggesting?”
”Maybe you should stay here for the night?”
I was scared. She looked at me, but I couldn´t figure what she was thinking. Maybe I´m going to fast…
”Uhm, sure. My mom doesn´t mind anyway”
In my head I was screaming of happiness.

We went inside again, seeing Louis being realived.
”You´re smiling!” Louis laughed while saying.
”Yeah, she made me smile soo..”
He smiled at me, and I smiled right back at him. I was happy. And I haven´t been this happy since the day I met Alice.

But then I remembered why I left her.. The razor I found on her desk. I wanted to talk with her about that, but she was so happy, and I couldn´t take that smile away.

”Harry? The earth calling Harry?”
Alice was waving her hands in front of my face. I have been thinking for a long time.
”Yes.. Sorry, I was in my own world.. ”
”Are you okay?” she whispered, before taking me to the kitchen.
”Yeah I´m fine, I´m just thinking about food.. I haven´t eaten for days.. ” My stomach started to mumble.
"Louis can you make some pancakes or something? I haven´t had time to eat breakfast this morning, and I think Harry´s pretty goddamn hungry too.” She laughed.

I love her laugh. She´s smiling. And she looks like an angel.

Alice´s POV:

”When are those pancakes done Lou?” Harry was laughing. I loved his laugh. You could see his dimples when he laughed. He looks so happy.
”In a minute! Wait up guys! I´m not Gordon Ramsey or something!”

After eating the pancakes, Lou went out to lit a cigarette. I hate when he smokes..

”You look happy Harry?”
”I am”
”That´s lovely. That´s more than lovely. That´s amazing!!”
”Yeah it is love..”
”Something wrong?” His face started to look sad.
”I just really want to talk to you about why I left that morning. I feel like, you need to know why. But I just don´t want you to leave me.. ”
”I wont leave you Harry, I´m here for a reason okay? We can go upstairs and talk?”

He took my hand, while walking up the stairs. We finally got to his room. This house is huge.
”In here”
His room had so many books, lights and posters. It was beautiful.
"I really like your room Harry”
”Thanks hun.. ”
”Okay, so you wanted to tell me something?”

Harry´s POV:

So then I told her about the whole night. 
How I wanted to hug her so close, when we met her in the store.
How sad she made me feel, when Louis hold her in his arms.
How hurt I was, when I had to leave early.
How happy she had made me feel, when we kissed.
And then I told her about the razor on her desk.

”Harry.. I..”
”Yeah..?” She looked sad. What had I´ve done?
”I´m sorry you had to find out that way.. But I had been clean for a year, but.. I broke it at that time.. I´m sorry..”
”It´s okay.. I just don´t want you to hurt yourself like that.. I know how it feels, but I just want to see you smile.. ”
”I feel the same way about you.. I really care about you okay Harry?”

I just hugged her tighter than I´ve ever hugged anyone. She made me feel so weird.. I have never in my life felt like this. I don´t even know if this is good or bad. She hurts me, but she makes me happy at the same time..

We layed down on my bed, just looking at each other.
”What?” She smiled while saying.
”I wanna kiss you so bad, but I´m sure if I should”
She then leaned in kissing my cold lips. But they were no longer cold. When her lips touched mine, fire was in my stomach. Lightning was in the air, and a smile on my face.
”You make me so happy Alice.. I haven´t felt like this before.. I´m not used to smile for no reason. But you make me smile.. ”
She smiled at me and her little giggle lightened up the room.

How is this guys? I´m sorry I haven´t been uploading anything for a while, I´ve just been busy. With school and life in general.
But I really hope you liked this chapter!
xx