recap:
i got in the back of the ambulance before sitting and grabbing y/n's hand.
"you'll be okay, mama. everything is gonna be just fine." i whisper to her.
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billie's POV:
i can't believe she's still here after falling from a fucking building.
"y/n? as long as i'm here no one can hurt you." i tell her as i sit next to her hospital bed watching her unconscious, bruised body lay there in front of me.
i've been here sitting with her for hours upon hours.
both of our families came and went sending me sympathetic looks as they did so.
they gave me so much love and we shared so many tears but we're so happy that she's still here.
we're happy she survived.
we know, deep down, that she's gonna be okay.
i begin to hum and think of lyrics in my head so i begin typing them down so i don't forget them and then voice recording the melody i'm humming.
as i'm doing so i get the urge to pee so i get up to go to the bathroom after kissing y/n's forehead.
"i'll be right back, angel." i say walking away.
Y/n's POV:
i survived?
how the fuck is that even possible?
this is fucking insane!
what the fuck have i done? i hurt billie...
all she wanted to do was help and i hurt her.
i jumped even after she asked me not to. she wanted me okay and i still jumped.
she made me okay and i did it anyway.
i need to apologize to her now.
i- i can't open my eyes; they feel so heavy.
my body feels heavy; i can't move.
i need to fucking wake up!!!
okay okay breathe.
think about what makes you happy.
what's your happiest memory? ah yes it's of billie at the grammy after party. she was so happy and you and claudia celebrated her and finneas' wins. you were so proud of them.
then there's when billie asked you to be hers 2 years ago right before she went on tour dragging you along with her.
the moment she started being more confident and happy.
seeing her on stage in her happy place.
her with fans.
