y/ns pov
here am i once again, sitting in my room thinking about him. my phone rings over and over again as i sit there staring at my phone debating if i should answer his call. i finally pick up the call, as always hes sitting on his bed his lights blue and him holding a blunt in his hand.
vinnie: it took you long enough
y/n: sorry i was doing something
vinnie: come over i miss you
y/n: vinnie i'm not a toy, i'm not someone you can just call when you need something
vinnie: i love you y/n
y/n: then why'd you only call me when your high ?
vinnie: y/n thats not true
y/n: vinnie it is and you know its true, this is the first time you have wanted to ft me whenever i wanna ft you its always "y/n i cant rn i have to help jordan do something" or "i would but me n baby j are going skating" then i see you post a tiktok with desi, jordan or baby j at the house, vinnie i love you but i cant keep doing this with you if all you want me for is to satisfy your needs, so i'm gonna hang up and when you have sorted yourself out vinnie then ill come back but if you really love me then you will do this for me .
then i hang up, run into my bathroom and just scream, i slide down my door and just cry...
the next morning
i wake up on the floor of the bathroom and remember what happened last night, i go down stairs to see maddy , nailea and desi waiting on the couch for me and when i see them i just break down crying, sobbing my eyes out so much i couldn't breath
y/n: i love him so much but he doesn't love me back
maddy: baby he loves you hes just not doing well at the moment.
nailea: bub i promise everything will be fine if ya'll are meant to be ya'll will find your way back to each other
desi: y/n trust us he hasn't talked about any other girl like he talks about you since his ex.
y/n: i love this kid bro. i would give my life if it meant he could be happy, dude he has my whole heart i haven't felt this way about anyone in a long time. he makes me so happy, his smile could make the saddest person in the world smile, this kid makes me genuinely happy, he makes me feel so safe when i'm with him its like no one can hurt me, when i look in his eye all i see his a person who i love with my whole heart, body and soul, i wanna marry this man, i wanna have this mans kids, i'm so in love with him.
then we hear a knock at the door.
