Tangles of the Mind

safety lock

how can the man i love strike fear through my bones?

it feels strange. refusing contact from those i love; blood and soul connected.

i trust them, not him, so why does it cause a spark up my spine as they hold their arms out to me?

how does a single touch create so much paranoia?

it wasn't even his fault, he's apologized, he's learning, i know he is.

although i dont understand, there's one person i'm not afraid to hold; a man i only met a short time ago.

the fascinating creature with inky brown hair, the being that holds so much behind his eyes; he has no interest in my soul, or idea as to why i figure him out.

what am i thinking?

it's all a mess, i must keep him at arms length, despite how badly it hurts.

i can't fuck him up, i owe him that at least.

i'll stay silent, 

a memory.