Time changes people for the better or for the worse. I don’t know what it’s done for me. My name is Gabby I’m eighteen years old I have blonde hair and gorgeous blue eyes, I have an edgy look about myself that scare most people. I have a personality unlike half the people in this school. I go to Carson High School that’s located in Nevada for all of you who don’t know. I’ve lived here my entire life and have seen it all; nothing exciting ever goes on here. I see the same people every day. The same plastic girls and their tool boyfriends; if they only knew that this is just high school this love never lasts. I am not one for love; I guess after his death I never brought myself to love another or even except that love exist anymore. I was once one of those girls who had their dumb love. I miss him still every day.
I put my ear buds in my head and drowned out the blur of conversations surrounding me. The stares use to bother me but I guess I’ve gotten use to them. Johnny’s death was a year ago today. The school has made it clear and didn’t miss a chance to throw me in the therapist’s office. They asked me
“I know today must be hard for you.”
It was but I was too thick headed to admit it to them.
“No, I’m fine. Can I leave now?”
They looked at me unenthused of my answer. The office was covered in paintings. I always found myself distracted and getting lost in the stories each painting held.
“Gabrielle, you cannot just bottle up these feelings you need to release them in a constructive manner.” She said.
“Well if you insist on pestering me about something I really have no desire talking about here it goes. I lost the person that I held dearest to me to a car accident last year. A drunk driver sped and flipped our car not once, not twice but, three times. I lived and he didn’t.”
I stared at her and waited for the pity to kick in. I never like telling the story because I feel the knots start to set in. I hated this. I hate being here without him.
She sighed and looked at me with that expression I get from everyone.
“I’m sorry you’ve had to experience this Gabby, it’s something no one your age should ever have to deal with. The loss of John was tragic for the whole school.”
Johnny was the schools best athlete; he was looked up to be many. He was loved by everyone, he was pure he was what everyone wanted to be. He was a scholar student all the teachers loved him. He was all around the perfect person. The heart of gold always giving to people if he could he’d give you the shirt off his back. Johnny was a 6’2 foot gut with brunette hair and hazel eyes. He was built but he had to be. He was the schools gentle giant I use to call him.
“All I want to do is get out of this stupid office and get on with my day if you don’t mind.” I responded to her with my poor attitude.
She dismissed me and I walked out with my shoulders slumped not ready to go on with my school day. It already started off horribly in the therapist’s office.
Walking down the halls without him seemed normal now, except today was different today I needed him here. Today I wanted to finally wake up and him be here like it was all a bad dream. This wasn’t a bad dream this was reality and it was hitting me hard. I walked to my locker to see my friends Bridget and Lindsey waiting there for me.
“Hey girl, how are you holding up?” Bridget said.
Great more pity I thought.
“I’m really fine. It’s been a year Bridget I think it’s finally time to just get over it. Johnny’s gone and there is nothing anybody can do about it. So let’s not talk about anymore today kay?” I said with a serious tone.
