wine drunk | Heeseung x Jay

four // quatre

• sphallolalia // spallolalie •
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Jay slides his empty glass up the counter and Heeseung does the same.

Jay digs into his pocket for money and Heeseung pulls his own wallet out. the two pay and thank the bartender.

when they turn to face each other, Heeseung wears the most delectable expression:
a sheepish grin with a hint of diffidence.

Jay wants to rip his clothes off this instant.

"i hate to admit it but i want a cigarette." at this Jay realizes what the additional scent that lingers around Heeseung is.

cinnamon and cigarettes.
what a combo.

somehow, Heeseung makes it work.

"i'll join you." the two step out onto the balcony, the perks of being in a bar with two stories.

Heeseung pulls out a pack of cigarettes from his pocket and extends the first one he slides from the box to Jay.

it's Jay's turn to look sheepish. "i actually don't smoke."

Heeseung chuckles and Jay does too.

Heeseung lights the cigarette with a pocket lighter and then brings the stick to his mouth.

from the balcony they can see the Eiffel tower. it gleams and glitters in the night and they take in the sight.

"i've always wondered what smoking is like but i've never wanted to take the risk."

Heeseung chuckles gently. "i know it's bad for me. i don't actually do it that often. only when i'm... feeling lonely."

Jay looks at him. "but you're not lonely right now. i'm here with you."

Heeseung ducks his head, then lifts it to take another drag.

"i don't mean like that." he murmurs quietly.

Jay thinks for a moment.

lonely? like...

"do you mean romantically?"

Heeseung's lips curl into a wince. "bingo."

Jay wants to comfort the other but he has no idea how to. should he talk about how he feels the same? maybe he should tell Heeseung about Tom... but that would mean having to be honest with himself.

i can do it.

Jay takes a deep breath.

"i lied earlier actually." Heeseung looks at him but he stares straight ahead. "i'm not just traveling because i need book inspiration..."

"...my former lover is getting married. well actually, as of this morning, the ceremony is finished and he's most likely preparing for a honeymoon."

Jay sighs and fiddles with his watch.

"i dated a lot in college. i wasn't a serial dater, and i wouldn't consider myself a player either. i didn't use and dump every new person the next day. frankly, half of the dating was just having sex, but i feel like players just sleep around with no emotion or strings attached. for me, i'd give each new prospect a part of myself each time they stayed the night, but having so much sex..."