Amethyst's
"You sure it's okay for me to look like this? I mean I'm meeting your sister after all." napakamot ako sa ulo. I wasn't prepared okay? wala akong kahit na anong damit na dinala so I had to borrow Jin's clothes. I'm wearing an oversized tee and a short of his na kinaliitan niya na. But still, oversized yung shirt so it ended up looking like a dress on me. Wala din akong makeup masyado. All i have on my face right now is Jin's lip balm.
"You look fine Amethyst. Wag ka ma-pressure, kapatid ko lang yan." sabi niya habang iniinom ang americano drink niya. Nauna kasi kami sa meeting place and anytime soon, dadating na ang sister niya.
Ngumuso ako. "Coming from you who looks good in everything. That's so unfair." I mean, track pants, slippers at black shirt lang ang suot niya ngayon but he already looks like a freaking supermodel. The visuals of this guy sure is on another level.
He smirked. "Did you just compliment me?"
Inirapan ko siya. "Yes but I won't say it again." nilabas ko ang phone ko at ginamit ang front camera para manalamin. I tied my hair in a bun kasi my loose hair makes me look like a girl having the most shittiest hangover. Paano, nagmamadali kanina. Baka daw ma-late kami eh tignan mo ngayon, kami pa nag open ng shop sa aga.
"Oppa! I'm sorry we were lat— huh? is that your girlfriend?" tanong ng boses ng babaeng, I'm guessing kapatid ni Jin, na kadadating lang. I looked at her and I was shocked to see the resemblance. Pero aside from that, her face also looks familiar for some reason. Sinubukan 'kong alalahanin kung saan ko siya nakita but my migraine's killing me so I didn't bother.
But I swear she looks too familiar.
"It's fine. We just arrived anyways. Where's the person you wanted me to meet?" tanong ni Jin. Marahan ko siyang kinurot sa sinabi niya. Anong 'we just arrived here' eh tangina, halos langawin na kami dito sa tagal.
Lumingon lingon yung babae. "He's in the comfort room. Actually, kuya, he's my boyfriend na." sabi niya bago mag retouch sa kanyang maputlang labi.
"Woah, since when did you have a boyfriend?" tanong ni Jin sa kanya. Daig pa pala siya ng kapatid niya eh. Siya may jowa, si Jin wawa. Pfft. "By the way she's Amethyst."
Tumingin siya sa akin at nakipag-shake hands. "Hi Amethyst, I'm Jinri! I'm guessing from my brother shirt, you guys enjoyed the night huh?" kung may pagkain lang ako siguro nasamid na ako.
"N-No, we're not what you think we are." sabi ko pero napunta na sa likod ko yung attention niya. May lahing nakakainis din itong babaeng ito ha. Kinakausap, walang pake.
Biglang may lalaking lumapit sa table namin, galing sa likod ko, at hinalikan si Jinri sa labi. "Sorry, there was a long line at the washroom." humarap siya sa amin. "I'm sorry fo—"
Ako, si Jin, pati na din siya. Sabay sabay nanlaki ang mga mata namin nang magkatinginan kami. I knew this girl was familiar. She's Taehyung's other woman. Goddammit! And to think I shook hands with her?
"Taehyung, what do you think you're doing?"
I didn't have the courage to speak kaya si Jin na ang gumawa non para sa akin. So Jin's sister huh? At sya naman, sa dalawang beses na nakita ko sila, hindi niya ako natatandaan? Or nagmamaangmaangan lang itong babaeng to para ipamuka sa akin na sila ni Taehyung? Either way, I'm still pissed and it's only what, 10 in the morning.
"No, what are you doing with her?" pabalik na tanong ni Taehyung kay Jin.
Nagkatitigan ng masama ang dalawa. Kung nakakamatay lang ang tingin, malamang kanina pa ako nakulong.
Biglang ngumiti si Jinri at nakisingit sa titigan ng dalawa. "Ok ok, it's my fault I didn't tell you kuya. But here he is, my boyfriend. And you," malagkit na tingin ni Jinri kay Taehyung habang palarong tinuro ang dibdib niya. "You should be happy for my brother not question him." sabi niya bago tumingin sa akin.
I wanted to slap her so bad. But I'm guessing she don't know who I am. And even if I wanted to, I still can't change the fact that she's Jin's sister so slapping her right now is totally out of the question.
Nagkasalubong ang mga kilay ni Taehyung habang tinitignan ang damit na suot ko. "Is that true?" tanong niya sa akin.
Suddenly, the idea of it didn't seem bad to me. After all, siya naman ang nauna. He cheate— no. I can't even call it cheating kasi as much as I hate to admit it, we are nothing in the first place. We're only bounded by marriage that was and still against our will. So I did my best to genuinely smile at him and said, "Yes. I'm sorry we kept it hidden all these times. I didn't want you or the guys to know what we've been doing behind closed doors. Specially you I mean, you would understand right? The thrill of doing things hidden?"
He looked dumbfounded. I'd say there was pain in his eyes but knowing what he did, why would he? This guy doesn't know an inch about being in pain. He's the one causing it, not the one receiving it. His jaw clenched, "Prove it."
Unconsciously, I chuckled. "Is my clothes not enough proof? Fine. You asked for it." I glared at him before turning my gaze to Seokjin. My hands roaming from his chest to neck as I slowly close the gap between our lips. He was shocked. Frozen for a couple of seconds before melting into my lips. As soon as he began responding, it's as if his hands had it's own will and began travelling to my waist. I'd admit, Jin's a pretty damn good kisser. His plump lips feels so soft against mine, enough to make girls weak but not me and I hate it. This should make me feel happy that I get to experience kissing him. But there's this side of me that keeps saying 'Taehyung's better'.
He pulled away, gasping for air and so did I. His face, as red as tomato, trying to avoid my gaze while clearing his throat. I turned to Taehyung before smiling. "Oof, so are we guys done here? Turns out we all know each other so there's no need for introductions. Then, if you'll excuse us." sabi ko bago tumayo at hawakan ang kamay ni Jin bago tuluyan nang umalis sa shop papuntang parking lot.
Tahimik lang kaming naglakad hanggang sa pag-sakay namin sa kotse hanggang sa pag maneho niya kung saan, ni isang salita wala.. Kaya naman ako na ang naunang umaksyon. "I'm sorry for what I did. Hindi ko alam kung anong iniisip ko."
But I did know. Alam ko na somewhere deep down inside of me, I wanted to make him jealous. To feel the pain he caused me to feel. Pero mukhang nabaliktad kasi dahil sa ginawa ko, it only made me feel foolish and desperate. Who am I kidding? Hindi na siya babalik.
"It's fine. I understand why you did what you did." he said but why did he sound so bitter?
Napa-buntong hininga ako. I didn't know what to say or what to do. All I know is that I needed time to think. I needed space for myself. I needed to unwind. Masyado na akong nao-overwhelm sa mga pangyayari and I need the break I thought I'm supposed to get right now but didn't. "Mind dropping me off here? I just want to be alone for a while." sabi ko habang nakatingin lang sa bintana.
He was about to say something but chose not to, and pulled the car over. Bumaba ako at nginitian siya. He smiled back but not the smile he usually do.
His lips were wide as the ocean,
But his eyes were lost as a star in a day.
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