My Love In Email [EPISTOLARY]

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From: minzerarilloso@gmail­.com
To: lexusdelavega@gmail.­com
Date: Mar 30, 2020, 01:00 AM
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Hi! This is Zera. I hope you’re still know me. Kung hindi? nako magtatampo talaga ako sayo. Pero kung hindi mo talaga ko kilala e ayos lang, I’ll still barge into your email. Lol.

This is my first ever Email to you, for you. I don’t know why I suddenly wants to talk to you. I know I am a huge pain in your life. I ruined your life. I ruined everything. And I know, I’m still ruining it. I don’t want you to forgive me because ayokong makita kang wasak habang pinapatawad mo ko. I want to say sorry. But that doesn’t mean that the pain will be gone. Pain remains. And it heals with time. So, don’t be rushed. I never wanted you to forgive me. I am so very sorry but never forgive me. I am a big sinner that can’t be forgiven.

So, enough for the drama. I’m wearing a make up right now. For God’s sake. But my tears are a sinner too, you know? Tumulo kasi siya sa mata ko! Nakakainis. Pero ayoko ng sirain pa ‘tong make up ko. Baka magmukha pa kong sabog. Lagi mo pa naman akong sinasabihan n’on. Kainis!

Three years had passed. Ngayon lang ako nagkaroon ng lakas ng loob. I am coward, I know you know that. Duwag ako. Takot ako. Mahina ako. Sobra sobra. But now, here I am. I wrote an email for you. If you reply to this or what, it doesn’t matter. Basta, may nasabi lang ako sayo:) I just want to share my days to you without you by my side. Hehe so childish, right? Yeah, I know.

Bye for now, Lexus.

Ps: I am happy while writing this, hope you too.