So as you may know I have trust issues and I can tell when someone's being toxic by the way they talk to someone and I know my father is toxic and I hate him he called me a fucking bitch I see you next Tuesday he called me a A mental bitch that I should be in a mental hospital which I did nothing and I know he's toxic just because I don't wanna talk to him anymore doesn't mean you can call me a bitch or any of those words those words hurt and that's why I have trust issues that's why I can't let anybody in about my feelings I just can't believe it I can't cry over this because then he'll win and I don't want him to win because this is my chance to tell him like I'm done with him and I'm done with his crazy girlfriend that calls me stuff to you calls me a lot of words I just can't believe this I just don't know and I'm really sorry that I'm disappointing everyone that There is no not updating I am very sorry I feel very stupid and I feel very worthless right now
