Chapter 23

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(Harry's POV)

Autumn has left and I'm alone in this hotel room. I would go back to sleep but now that I'm up, I can't get back to sleep thanks to that beautiful, stubborn girl. I can tell she's really not used to being pampered since she tried to take a cab instead of having my driver take her home. Other girls usually don't hesitate to take full advantage of what I offer them, she will just have to get used to these changes.

I think back to that night when I told her I was starting to have more feelings for her, but I don't know if I even can have those feelings. Autumn and I have completely different lifestyles and I would hate for her to be exposed to all the things I deal with everyday. Paparazzi, false rumors, hate, etc... Plus, she's only 18 and I'm 21, I know it's not right. From now on I think we should just continue what we've been doing and I know it won't be easy, but I'm going to have to suppress any developing feelings to make it easier on her and myself.

A knock on my door breaks my thoughts and I look through the hole in the door to see who it is. When I see that it's Liam, I unlock the double locks and open the door.

"You should probably start getting ready!" He says while running a comb through his hair and motions towards my appearance. The boys and I are attending an event on the red carpet tonight.

"Alright alright, I'm going." I whine and walk further into my suite. Liam follows.

I walk into the large, white bathroom and begin getting ready.

"So what's the story with that girl you've been hanging out with lately?" Liam questions, calling from the other room while I brush my teeth.

"There's no story. Autumn's a good shag and she's a fan so I let her come to some concerts." I try to sound like I don't really care so he doesn't think I have any feelings for her.

"Oh, she seems like a nice girl. You should maybe become more." He suggests. "I think it would be good for you to find someone you can be closer to than just fuck buddies." Suddenly this feels like some sort of intervention.

"What are you, my mother?" I joke, smiling from the other room.

Okay, maybe I don't usually get too serious with the girls I get with but that's because I don't ever like them in that way. Also, a lot of them have used me in the past. With Autumn, I could actually see something more and I can tell she would never do that, but I don't want to be responsible for her inevitably getting hurt. I don't think she would be able to handle the pressure she would be under if we were together, always in the spotlight and more vulnerable to all the things I mentioned before. I'm sure she will get some attention if she is seen with me but that's nothing compared to if we were dating. And she's just so young, she's still only a teenager.

"Besides, I don't think she's into that. She's not the relationship type, she's in it for the same reasons I am." I lie, just wanting to end this conversation. I know that's not true, she's exactly the relationship type and I know she feels the same about me as I do her... Or did since I can't continue to encourage deeper feelings.

Liam nods and exits my suite leaving me to get dressed. When I'm ready, I exit the suite.

"Took ya long enough!" Louis jokes and I roll my eyes smiling. We head out through the back way of the hotel and make our way to the event.

I step out of the nice car we were brought here in and am immediately greeted by the flashes of many cameras and reporters asking questions and holding microphones towards us. I ignore them since I can't even ear what they are asking over the overwhelming atmosphere. We are lead where to stand for all the cameras taking multiple pictures.

Autumn crosses my mind and I think about how this whole thing would be so much better if she was here with me to sneak off somewhere. I immediately terminate my thoughts and return back to reality when some photographers yell tell to "look here."

My relentless mind takes over again and I think about the way she sucked me off for her first time last night and how amazing she was. Fuck, she's 3 years younger than me, its wrong. It's even more wrong that the thought of that turns me on. That and the fact that she is actually a fan that I just happen to sleep with. But it doesn't feel wrong, everything with that girl feels right. I realize I'm not going to win against these thoughts. As long as they stay as thoughts and I don't let her or anyone know about my developing feelings... even myself.

I shoot a text to Autumn
"It's probably not a good time to be thinking about your sweet lips wrapped around me last night. I've gotta get out of here so we can finish what we started ;)"

I can imagine her blushing from my text and within a few minutes, she replies.
"Don't get too excited over there, wouldn't want anyone to notice :P"

Her reply isn't the way just a fuck buddy would reply who's nothing more than that, so I try to be more suggestive with my reply.
"Wish I could come over there and make you scream my name. Would you like that, sexy?"

She replies.
"Yes please ;)"

Better....

a/n: heeyy, okay so.. this chapter is just to show you what Harry thinks about the whole thing and that he plans to keep his feelings towards Autumn to himself because he doesn't think she can handle the pressure of dating him bla bla bla... okayyy thanks for reading :D

(i will update when this chapter reaches at least 50 reads. please comment what you think of the story so far :)

SIDE NOTE: I JUST DECIDED THAT "CHANGE YOUR TICKET" IS DEFINITELY THE THEME SONG OF THIS STORY OK. 

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