Secret Thoughts

Breathe

        I'm suffocating and every breath I take is a struggle. I'm not claustrophobic but I guess now I know how it feels. I just want time to pause, the world to stop and most of all for someone to hear me but even i know that that is impossible because time waits for no one. It angers me because I know that even though I'm dying the world will keep moving, time wont stop, earth will keep rotating and people wont mind they'll still go about their business ignorant of the fact that I'm dying.
        I'm shouting and calling for help but no one seems to hear and even if they do they all just say that I'm being dramatic or that I'm an attention seeker . They tell me that I shouldn't be complaining because I'm better of than most people out there and I hate it, people have it worse than I do, yeah i get that but that doesn't mean that I'm not suffering too because we all are in our own way so no one should compare peoples problems with others.
        I want to give up so bad but I wont because there are people that are going to be in a worse situation if I do so I have to be strong if not for myself then for them.
       Everyone has a new year resolution, what they plan to achieve this year. It might be something as simple as cleaning their room or something as hard as not succumbing to an addiction. I thought of a new year resolution and to be honest of all the options I had been given like; avoiding trouble, doing well in school, enjoy my last year of school with my friends, e.t.c. the only thought  that crossed my mind was "I just want to be able to breathe", without struggle, pressure or pain.