A Letter from Me to You

Day 001

Hi,

It's been months since we last talked. I miss you. How are you my dear friend? I badly miss you. I want to text you, to call you, but how could I? I mean, I have nothing important to say. I just miss you.

You know what, I feel so different since that day we parted ways. It was like I was left behind. The naughty and jolly me became so quiet. You told me that I am serious but I don't believe you because I know I am not. But this time, I can say that you're right. I am serious.

I want to talk to you. I want to hug you. But I can't. You know why? Because I shouldn't.

I just realize that you consumed half of my life. Half of my 'freedom days'. I miss you. I miss our serious talks. I miss those times you tease me. I miss those times that you ask me 'kumusta ka na?', those times that you said 'thank you'. I miss those cute moments with you. I miss those times that I assumed that you're jealous of somebody. I miss those times that I tease you by asking 'selos ka naman?' And then you'll say 'oo'. I badly miss myself when I am with you.

Yes. You have her and she owned you, but it doesn't mean that I will steal you from her. I am here to appreciate you. I just miss you my friend, the only one who listens to my tantrums. The one who understands me without explaining myself. The one who gives importance to a nobody.

Times goes by, you and me are changing---going to different path. I am slowly accepting the fact that our past could never be back without hurting anyone. Our closeness will remain as memories from the past. We are like parallel lines, apart from each other and will never collide.

Do I like you? Am I falling for you? If that's the case, then I guess, I should accept the fact that my first love is just a dream. That once in my life I've fallen to an awesome guy who happened to be my bestfriend...I've fallen to a guy who cannot be my partner. I've fallen to an amazing man. But...am I really in love with you? I don't know. Mahalaga ka. That's the only thing I know.

Mali bang pahalagahan kita? Mali bang isipin kita? Mali bang mamiss kita? Siguro nga mali talaga. Nag-ri-reason out lang ako dahil ayokong mawala ka.

Basta, para sa akin, ikaw ang the best. Maaaring may humigit sa'yo, pero tandaan mo, mahalaga ka.

Sa ngayon, mamamaalam muna ako. Sana, hindi mo kalimutan na isang beses sa buhay mo, nakilala mo ang isang tulad ko.

Nagmamahal,

Shara