It Leads me to You

Opening (Reader)

"They will treat you like the most precious treasure."

"They will cherish you to the end of your days"

"They won't care about your body dearest. They will love you for you."

"Tell us once you see it! I want to know what color yours is!"

Bless your parents they kept you sane. But their words only worked for so long. Of course the topic in question. "They" Refers to your destined lover. Someone you will meet one day and share your life with. Something you humbly looked forward to since you were a child.

You know once you grew up they had filled your head with fantasy situations of how you will meet this person, how they will love you regardless of your obvious flaws, and you were okay with this. For the most part you needed those fantasies. You clung to them like they were water. You needed them to the extent that fed your very low (in the negatives) self confidence.

Like many others before, and many to come after, you look in the mirror with disdain and self hate, you see every little problem, the freckles over your (s/k) skin, you could see those nasty spots where your veins showed. It wasn't the fact you could see them, it was the fact they looked so misplaced in that area.

You always went down your body looking over every problem and belittled yourself over it, blaming yourself for being this way.

Then.

Then it ends on your weight.

The one thing people always bring up, or you feel are silently judging you over.

You were not fat to the point you couldn't walk, nor did you have rolls over rolls when you stand.

Those you could live with not having.

But you were to the point you had a muffin top and had to pull your pants up a bit higher than you'd like to hide it, you even wore long shirts when home so you didn't see the outline of it, you hated when you had to shower and wash around it, feeling it fall over your hip bones, and your stomach fell over your mound too and that was just nasty to you. Who would want to go down there?

Not you that's for damn sure.

Standing straight you could see your toes though, but that is just being lucky. Most people think if you can see your toes over any form of stomach you have that means you're healthy. Which is sadly false, you can be skinny and unhealthy. It just isn't highly talked about because skinny people "aren't the problem."

You scoffed at that any time you heard it.

"Boys like thick thighs" People often said. [Yeah only if she doesn't have the stomach to go with them.] You often replied in your mind.

"Men like a little more, gives them something to cuddle into." [Sure if her skin is soft.]

"Not all men like the same things." [True. But it seems the ones I like, either don't like me back, or are already taken, or just aren't interested in dating me. Some have complimented me on certain things but never with the desire to date me.]

You were not bitter. That would mean you were spiteful towards the world and everything in it. Which you were not. You loved your parents, and adore animals like many others. You have yet to fully give up on this world and since the monsters came out you have grown more interested in it just a tad.

The monsters were very interesting to see, and you fully supported them. Helping at any turn you could, you signed a few petition to help allow them in certain places, like stores and colleges.