"After the things I lived, I didn't want to fall in love again. But you made me believe in what I thought got lost in this dark and cold world." - Taehyung.
Continuation of "Calling Paradise."
Started: October 01, 2020.
Completed: September 11, 2021...
Jungkook helped me to calm down before the rest of the members arrived at the dorms. Both of us greeted all of our friends before I helped Jin with making today's meal. When I was around everybody, I tried to hide the current concerns that I accumulated in my head; I didn't want anyone to worry about me. It was enough to see Jungkook struggle when he tried to cheer me up earlier this day.
The argument I had with Jodie hit me in my weak spot. And all went downhill when I spoke on behalf of Jungkook; I wanted to defend the man I love, but at the same time, let Jodie know that I'm the only one that can control my life. My sister began to "protect me" after I healed from the memories I had from the past. And today, I understood that I didn't recover completely; I'm still upset about the things Jodie made me go through and all the hardships I had because of the "love" I once felt for her. When I argued with Jodie, I knew that I didn't require many things to say; my anger translated through my voice and expression. So, I believe that's what hit Jodie in the face.
For the rest of the day, I stayed with the rest of my friends. We watched movies, played games, and catch up with each other. It was pleasant to be all together, and even though Jimin wasn't there, I felt relief once I saw all of the guys smiling and having a fun time. After that, I went back to my room and decided to stay alone for some time. Yoongi came inside my room and tried to talk with me. He cheered me up as much as he could and helped me to distract my mind. I was grateful for his effort; after all, I sincerely needed some words of wisdom from my hyung.
*Current time – Evening*
I'm inside my room, lying down on the bed while my phone is a few centimeters away from me. I finally gave up after texting Jimin without an end; I wanted to talk with my best friend and apologize for not staying true to my word. I told Jimin I would control myself, but that didn't happen. So, today's disaster was my doing, and I don't know how to fix it.
I was cuddling against the pillows before I heard knocks on the door. So, I stood up and opened it, revealing Jungkook standing there. I stared at him for some seconds before facing another way; briefly, I let him come inside my room as I tried to compose myself.
-Most of the hyungs are sleeping, so it's the best shot we got to talk. – Jungkook spoke while closing the door behind him and then approached me.
-Sure, that sounds right. – I nodded before taking a deep breath. Shortly, I faced Jungkook while smiling slightly. He caressed my hair while looking at me worriedly. -I'm alright, Kook. – I assured before kissing Jungkook's hand.
-No, you are not. – Jungkook grinned before guiding me to the bed. We laid down together while still looking at one another. -Jimin-hyung would want you to stop calling him and sending messages. He also says that he isn't mad and that you shouldn't be so hard on yourself. – Jungkook disclosed, making me look at him, surprised.
