Broken beyond repair

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Leo

Looking at the wall in front of me as I hang from the ceiling from my hands. Back bleeding from being punished for dropping a plate. By now I am used to the pain these people have caused me .

The insults they throw at me as I walk past them . The pain I endure from the punishment they give me for the smallest mistake. I'm surprised I am still alive then I remembered they can't kill their only slave. I have endured this for 17 years without any help from my wolf.

My wolf have refused to help me since the day I have been able to shift ,which was from the age of 10. When he found out I was ranked an omega he completely cut me off and kept to himself. For some reason I actually understand his reasons who would want to be with a pathetic excuse of a human like me .

I have no one that love's me  in anyway . I have been abused , neglected and been basically treated like dirt my entire life.
Not once have I felt the love a mother and father had for their children, cause my own mother and father abandoned me at three . Even before they abandoned me they treated me like dirt.

Because werewolf develop faster than humans I still remember how they treated me like filth .
I don't know what I did to deserve this treatment . I was always seen as a mistake , a worthless piece of shit.

Everyone treats me bad yet they don't even know me . They see me as weak and worthless . It's actually funny though . They say I am weak but they don't know my  strength . I tell myself I am strong everyday cause I have survived through everything they have done for me . I have survived through the abuse , insults and everything else they threw at me .

I know I am strong cause I know none of them can go through what I have been through for the past 17 years and stay sane . But as everyday goes by it gets harder to convince myself that I am strong. I don't know how long  it will take for me to lose myself .

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You deserve everything that get ,every hit ,every kick . You should have died the day you were  born . " . Those were my mother's exact words before gave me to the alpha . From that day things got worse . I will always wish for a better life with someone that loves me . Someone that will stand by my side and protect me .

Every night I dream for a mate that will love and cherish me for the the rest of my life my . I wish for pain to stop for everything to just stop so that  I could have peace. No abusive pack members and family or being treated like a slave .

One can dream of heaven only to wake up and realize you are in hell known as life . I have suffered over and over everyday from the hands of the people that was suppose to love me  as if i was their own blood, but even my own blood despise me.

Falling to the ground as the guard unlock the silver chain on my wrists. I lay there motionless with no strength to do anything .
"Get up you worthless fuck and go make dinner or else .."  the guard sneers as he kicks in my ribs with so much force I heard one crack yet I don't scream in pain cause I am use to it .

Slowly and soundlessly getting up from the ground I stand up .
Looking up at the guard seeing him with a smile on his face as if
he is satisfied with seeing me in pain. He pushes me as I walk out of the dungeon.

As I step into the kitchen I see the alpha standing there with a cold expression on his face . Look down trying hard not to make anger him I hear him grunt "Get work and make dinner . And work fast you got an hour and half to finish . If everything is not done by the time I come back you will be punished ." He said before walking away .

Quickly getting started on dinner I let my mind drift a little while I hum to keep my mind off the pain as I move through the kitchen to make dinner for the pack.

As I begin to sing I feel like all my  pain is lifted and my mind cleared . I faintly smile as I sing Perfect by Ed Shereen knowing that was the only happiness I will ever get . I may be abused and  neglected but at least I know about some things in this world.

Swiftly moving around the kitchen as I finish the food . I didn't hear some one enter the kitchen . Looking at the door I see the head warrior standing at the door shirtless looking at me with an unknown emotion I couldn't place . Before I could say anything he quickly growled at me saying " Shut the fuck up will you no one needs to hear god awful singing!" Grabbing a water bottle and walking out of the kitchen with a scowl on his face .

After dinner was served I went to my cell to sleep since I wasn't aloud to eat without the Alpha's permission which will only be once every two weeks. Laying down on the cold floor I looked up to the ceiling like I do every night before I went to sleep . And I pray to the goddess for a better life . A life without any pain both mentally and physically. I hope she hears me.