Endless Winter
I think I was a little bit frustrated for feeling bad, even though I had everything
All that collections of wins of my life
Used to overshadow all falls
Never knew exactly what was that obsession for an invisible thing people call happiness
I never knew how to get to it
Never knew if I'd get to get it
My mother never understood me
Neither my father
They'd always mention they give me all the support that a son could have
That's when I realized money ain't everything
Those cheap thrills with my friends were way better than any summer trip with them
It always hurt me a little, but I never knew what to do
I never knew how to make things better at home
I never knew
I never felt like I belonged to them, neither them to me
And I keep asking God why
Why can't I feel normal when others seem to be so okay with their lives?
With their bodies, their everything
I just wanna feel love and maybe feel one percent of acception
And stop to be seen as a broken man, as a depressed introvert freak
I pray my life will change to better
And leave my broken hometown for some beach town
I fear if I get it someday I'll still feel down
Headphones on forever when I have the ocean right in front of me
Is this vacation or some summer prison?
I wanna have my baby by my side
But I guess it's too much to ask
I think if I love him, I'll be the worst of the sinners
And I'll deserve to burn in the deepest hell's hole
I pray for the energies to set me free
I can't keep living like I'm living
I need to start speaking fluently, to guarantee some shitty job in another city
Since mine has nothing besides muck
Please, baby, text me
Tell me you're invading my house
I'll let me window open for you, if you confirm
Take me away, and promise you'll never let me come back here
Please, let's leave this place together
Save from all this disturbance and weirdness
If I must be lost, let me be lost with you
And make sins like there ain't no tomorrow
God might not open the door for us, as they say
But at least I'll have lived moments
And will have memories later
To tell myself when I'm old in my balcony
And I love you, honey
My heart is honeydew when it comes to you
Answer me as fast as you can
Love
