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act i : scene vii

today, i go to hogsmeade for dress shopping with daphne, pansy, and the boys as well and we'll meet them at the three broomsticks.

"i heard that draco's date is astoria? why it isn't you?" daphne asks. though astoria is her sister, she loathes her just as much as i do. astoria's pretty and that's not a lie, but she can be a brat sometimes. all the time actually.

"mum asks me to come with the oh chosen one, don't ask me why" i explain quickly. "you guys? who are you going with?".

"blaise" daphne says at the same time pansy answers "theo".

"well then, i'm the only one going with gryffindor in this group" i sigh exasperatedly.

we walk to gladrags wizardwear. when we get in, we greeted by the sight of hermione granger trying a pink dress and ginny weasley gave her her opinion about the dress. granger nods to me whilst weaslette glaring at me and my friends. i'm pretty sure because i'd go to the yule ball with her crush —which is harry potter, also because i'm a slytherin, that's why maybe she despises me a lot.

we began looking for dresses. pansy ends up with baby pink tulle dress that just above her knee with short puffy sleeve. daphne ends up with satin sky blue long dress with not-so-deep v neck-line and simple straps. while i choose the simple one but elegant, a spaghetti-strapped emerald green long dress with a slit on my left thigh.

after we pay and everything, we go to the three broomsticks. we hang out for a bit and get back to the castle, seeing as the sun has set.

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it's three days before the yule ball. everyone's started getting ready, especially girls. the salon is full, had a waiting list for at least 20 people. daphne, pansy, and i are, thankfully the first one here, so we don't have to wait on the waiting list. daphne got her nails painted with lavender nail polish. pansy's shimmery grey nail polish and mine painted with matte black nail polish.

after we've got our nails done, we go to the make-up shop. we buy different shades of eyeshadows, lipsticks, lipgloss and many more.

our last destination is the shoe shop. we need to bought pair of high heels. daphne chooses lavender heels with a strap around the ankle and showing her toenails that've been painted lavender. pansy gets pink fur heels. i get black heels with leaves detail around the stem of it.

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two days before yule ball. i've prepared everything in my mind. i saw granger in the library. she's reading some kind of spells about beauty? maybe i could help her. "granger!" i shout, earning a death glare from madam pince.

"y/n" she raises her eyebrows. the golden trio have been calling me with my first name but i don't seem comfortable enough to do the same to them, especially what i do is not necessarily to help him.

"what d'you read?" i sat across from her, peeking the book she has been reading.

"oh this... um it's spells about beauty, yesterday i was going to get a pastel blue nail polish it was sold out so.. also i might've need references for what i'd do with my hair" she explains quickly.

"i don't know about nail polish but i think i can help you with your hair if you'd like? before we go to the great hall, we could meet at the girls lavatory" i offered.

"it's that okay? i mean... i don't want you to waste your time to helping me with my hair also don't want harry-" she began rambling very quickly, i couldn't even make out what words she said.

"shush! it's fine, i mean we're kinda uh what's the word um... acquainted right?"

"acquainted? i considered you as a friend y/n, especially for helping harry to avoid his death that day and i'm thankful for that" she is really sweet. i don't know what she will think if she knew that my main intention is only helping him to help my mum, though i don't know why my mum begs me to help her by helping potter.

i really feel bad about the mistakes i made, but it seems like i have no control of what my mind wants and what my heart wants. right now, i'm trying and following what my heart wants, helping. "so please call me hermione!"

"i- i'm flattered really, thank you and um i'm sorry for what i've done in the past to you, i always feel like i'm not myself but at the same time it is me," i say speechlessly.

"yea... i also feel like you're somewhat fake actually, no offence though" said she sheepishly.

"it's because my mind does it, not me, not my heart." i sigh deeply, wanting no more than control over myself. "maybe i should go now? um.. meet me at the girls lavatory at 7:45pm if you'd like help?" i really love hanging out with her and the others as well, but i can't be their friend if i'm still much of a coward to defy just one rule of my mother.

"yea sure.. thank you y/n" she beamed at me and i giving her two thumbs up awkwardly whilst getting up from the seat.

i go out of the library. i did help potter, but just to make my mother proud. this is not who i really am and i loathe myself for not having the courage to listen to myself and just listen to their orders like a puppet on stage.

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it's the christmas night, which also means yule ball night.

now it's 7pm, i started changing my sleeping gown to the dress i bought a few days ago.

7:08pm, i started doing my make up. just a simple eyeliner with soft eyeshadows and i apply the mascara, i use blush on my cheeks and a bit of highlighter on my cheekbones, nose bridge and on my forehead in a very tiny amount. i use my favourite lipstick colour and giving it a little bit of gloss.

7:36pm, i changed my slippers to my high heels and i bid my goodbye to pansy and daphne —who've been prepare themselves with me, and i told them i'll be helping granger with her hair.

i start walking to the girls lavatory quietly and try my best to avoid anyone i know. when i get in, i was greeted with panicked face hermione and frustrated face ginny. hermione has been holding the side of ginny's skirt, i don't know what made them do not even realise someone's get into the lavatory.

hermione's wearing a floaty periwinkle-blue material that looked so beautiful in her body. ginny's wearing a cute pink-mint green dress with a lace on her collar, layered tulle skirt and a mint-green choker that made her look so pretty.

"hi?" my voice startled them both, but after seeing my face they both sigh in relief. "what happened?"

"ginny's dress cut accidentally while her friends trying a charm" hermione's face is red, her hair bushy, her palms sweaty. whilst ginny remain still with a  frustrated expression and told hermione, "if this couldn't get fixed told neville i'm sorry i didn't come, tell him i'm sick or something"

"oh shush! we can fix it, i just don't remember the incantation!"

"it's reparo" i said calmly and nod my head lightly. hermione gasps and quickly throw her arms around my shoulder, saying thank you repeatedly and kiss my left cheek afterwards. after hermione's performing the charm to ginny's dress, ginny thanks me. i immediately charm hermione's hair into an elegant knot in the back of her head with some curls hanging to her shoulder.

we go towards the main stairs that lead to the great hall. this is the time we've been waiting for. or not.