Denial

Chapter 9~ Amortentia

I made my way to the breakfast hall, still processing everything that went down the night before. I didn't even bother to look over at the Slytherin table. I just couldn't get myself to look, though, I really wanted too.

I knew I would just make it harder for myself if I keep torturing myself and kept denying what I was feeling. The sensation that rushed over me was noting like I ever felt before. Even not with Victor Krum. It was magical......filled with ecstasy and overwhelming frenzy.

And yet............yet......I don't seem to like what I'm feeling. It just can't be. This is Draco Malfoy one of the most foul and evil people I know. Although not completely might I add. Considering what he did for the school. Dumbledore's come to think that Draco is a brave boy.

And I think this is why he made him prefect. All this going on in my head is making me weak mentally. Which is definitely not a good sign considering our exams are due in a week. I need to focus I keep telling myself but it's hard. I need to face it , I just know it deep down but I can't. I am a chicken when it comes to those kinds of things.

I took a sit beside Harry. He was in quite a good mood. Which is rare these days. And for the first time in forever Ron was finally talking about something worth discussing. He seem to have made a whole conversation with everyone on the breakfast table discussing about our O.W.L.S.

"Do you think you're prepared Ron" inquired Shamus vaguely, eyeing him. Everybody knows that studying is usually not Ron's thing. He thinks intuitively. Which is quite smart of him too.
"Buddy, of course I am, what do you think I've been doing on my free time" replied Ron. The amount of confidence in his voice is unmeasurable.

"Oh really" I replied instinctively knowing that he wasn't doing anything productive during his free time and that he was gonna use the one week left to study. My intuition told me that he was lying. I could see it all over his face.

Even Harry could see it. And he kept his mouth shut and I bet it's because the same applied for him too. I wonder what these two do on their free time. I would not happen to know because l haven't been spending much time with both of them.

"Yeah that's right Harmonie" Ron replied clearly wanting to change the topic now.

After breakfast we headed straight to the dungeon. We had Potions with Snape. I don't know what could be worst than having to deal with Snape early in the morning.

We all settled accordingly. Harry, Ron and I, right in the back. I could see Draco right in the very front, giving me deadly looks. Probably to warn me to keep my mouth shut. I just ignored him I didn't want to deal with his beautifuuuu......I mean face..I don't want to deal with his face.

As always Snape walked in, shaking very single cauldron that was in the room. Nobody seem to mind because everyone was already use to it by now.

"Today we will be brewing a special potion called Amortentia!!!!!as you can see I've already prepared mine......" announced Snape while eyeing everyone.
"Naww...gather around my cauldron everyone......move" everyone moved instantaneously gathering around the cauldron.

"Mrs Granger, could you enlighten us" Demanded Snape whole eyeing the Cauldron. The potion inside the cauldron was already giving off steam. I nervously took a step forward.

I usually wasn't nervous when it came to answering questions but this!!!!!! I wasn't ready for.
Everyone was eyeing me curiously.
"Amortentia smells like what attracts you the most!!!!!!!!" I started than paused to catch my breath, for some reason my impulses didn't seem to work.

"For example, I smell...........old books......quidditch equipment and.....and green apples" I finished with utter surprise. I was shocked. I didn't even know that I was attracted to green apples and....and quidditch equipment. This was something new for me.

"It is a powerful potion, takes careful concentration to brew" Snape said in continuity, and acted like noting happened and that I didn't even answer his question at all. Well what did I expect. It's Snape. And he hates me.

"I didn't know you were attracted to Green apples" whispered Ron surprisingly "yeah .....me too " I replied truthfully, still quite surprised with myself.

After Potion we had Hogwarts History it was boring but I paid as much attention as I could. The O.W.L.S were due in a week. After Hogwarts History we had Arithmancy. I kinda of liked Arithmancy so I actually enjoyed it. Or was I trying to get my mind off my current thought ? I don't even know. I seemed to have been a different person lately. Someone I don't recognize. I thought I knew myself well! But I guess I didn't. A lot of things that are happening In my life are surprising me. And I couldn't help but think about them.

Classes were over and we were off to the dining area. While Ron, Harry and I were making our way down the hall towards the dining area, there was a commotion outside. We all rushed to see what was causing all the Chaos. And I wasn't even surprised about what I found out.

A first year student was laying in the middle of the crowd. And Professor Sprout was attending to him. Apparently Fred and George were selling what they called "Power Gums". One of their so called Power gums seemed to knock the nerve impulses out of that little boys' Brain and he was laying lifeless on the floor.

Now I understand why they were so secretive about their conversations. They didn't want us to find out because they knew they would get in trouble. Not only with the school but with Mr and Mrs Weasley too.

Fred and George were asked to report to Professor Dumbledore's office. As much as I feel sorry for them for the consequences they're about to face I also despise their actions. Maybe this is a good thing. They'll learn from their mistakes and hopefully never do it again.

"Blimey, I hope mum never finds out about this......she's gonna loose it" said Ron " the school will still send a letter, they are going to know about it ........probably tomorrow" I replied truthfully killing the leap of faith Ron had in him about his mum not finding out about this. Ron doesn't want to add stress to his mother. She's already going through a lot.
"Well good luck to Fred and George" Replied Harry sarcastically.
"Move along now, noting to see anymore" announced Filch annoyingly.

We all made our way to the dining hall. As I was walking in Draco and I locked eyes. And oh my gosh, my heart skipped a beat. I don't know why still.... I quickly tuned my glance to the Griffindore table. Trying to ignore what just Happened.

First of all I didn't know, I was looking towards the Slytherin table and yet I did it!!!!