Moments

Sometimes time dont heal all broken hearts

Introduction

Maybe it was the fear in his eyes when he seen the truck coming , or just the fact i lost my brother that day, that it keeps reminding me how i lived , he didn't , the pain keeps saying its your fault , but my heart keeps saying ill be ok.

Now i wont have a big brother to be there when a boy breaks my heart, or to stand up for me when my parents are a bit hard on me.

I know hes in a better place , looking down on me , seeing how much ive grown in 2 years , and how our dream of singing still lives on in me.

We used to sing together and make our own cds , mom still got the mothers day cd and christmas.

I still hear my mom cry some nights when she thinks of him, it hurts all of us , that just in 10 seconds his life was over at the age of 18 , and was ended by a drunk driver.

Those moments of fear ,pain, tears

Are what changes people but it didn't change me.

Chapter 1

" So are you singing at the dance this friday?" My friend Ally said seeing the hurt in my eyes.

" I don't know thats my brothers birthday" letting the tears build up in my eyes.

" wouldn't he want you to, sing for him? "

I guess she was right but , i haven't wrote a song in a long time, and i haven't been singing lately either.

" Well maybe , but ill think about it, i have to go now , ill see you later"

" alright , and jess?"

" yea?" I said turning around to face ally again

" take it easy ok? Things will get better.

I walked off , trying not to cry as i walk through the hallway.

I got to my class and sat by myself as usually , sometimes ally sits with me, but she isn't in english with me. She worries for me , but thats what bestfriends do.

Ally's my bestfriend and shes the most beautiful girl in the school, we look similar besides she has dark brown hair and blue eyes , and i have dark red hair with green eyes.

I get my green eyes from my mom, and so did my brother , but he had dark hair like my dad , i get my hair color from my aunt Jen , on my moms side of the family.

School goes by fast , but at my house minutes feels like hours and hours feel like days, my family haven't had a good connection since we lost adam , he kept us together , now we all have fallen apart , and the pain is slowly killing us inside.

" Good your home, me and your dad are going to aunt jens for a couple days, your 17 now , your old enough to stay here for awhile" mom said with a little bit of excitement because she was leaving.

" alright , why cant i go?"

I felt like i already knew the answer

" You have school, and me and your dad just needs to get out of the house".

Mom just said it that way so she wouldn't hurt me, i know how much pain i cause her when she looks at me and sees my brother in my eyes.

" There is money in the top shelf of my closet ". She said rushing out of the house.

As she left , i heard , perfect by simple plan on the tv , my brother loved that song , mostly because the words made him think of his relationship with dad .

Its not everyday im so worked up about my brother , because some days im actually happy its just, his birthday is in 2 days and it just makes me upset he died 3 weeks before his 19th birthday