I truly don't know what I want from other people sometimes. Whenever I have problems with certain people I want them to notice that they did something wrong and just want to fix it and for me not to have to say it out loud. But that really doesn't happen that often.
I don't know what you are supposed to do when you know that a person is just a certain type of way and that you don't want them to have to change themselves for you, but you also don't want to keep getting hurt by what they say or do.
I don't want to grow to accept certain people habits or just slowly resent them for it.
If I bring it up to them it either goes nowhere and they get defensive and act like you are just being sensitive or don't respect them being their own person who acts a certain way. Or they feel like they have to change who they are for you.
And I'm never ready to deal with either one of those two options. So a person like that in my life could literally ask me if there is anything they could do to improve our relationship and I still would say nothing. And then I feel bad because then the balls in my court and I'm the one choosing to be closed off and not work on fixing the problem. And then I'm just mad at myself.
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Thoughts of a Teenage Mosaic
LosoweA series of random thoughts and feelings from a person who can never tell the difference between when they are being insightful or stupid, rambling or making sense, and being accurate or trapped in their head.
