TAMARA | COMPLETED

Chapter 15

Tamara's POV

I woke up to my phone vibrating on my nightstand. Why is everyone so keen in waking me up early these days?

"Hello" I mumbled

"Good morning Tam" Oh it's Jay. I turned and faced the ceiling.

"Morning Jay" I spoke but my voice still deep.

"I just got your messages, did you finally get some rest" I yawned.

"Yeah well you found me sleeping didn't you?" I couldn't sleep last night. I thought I saw Darin's car when Jasper dropped me off but he just said I'm seeing things. I don't know though it felt really real.

"You barely slept I can tell. You should stop doing this to......"

" Stop doing what? Stop seeing what I can't help but see? Is that what I should stop?" He was quiet. "I'm sick and tired of you guys thinking I'm losing it or something. I get it I was freaking messed up a few months ago but I fixed that didn't I? Were you not the same Jay that was supporting me with my therapy and all that? Why do you still want me to lose my mind? Why do you guys always have to remind me of how emotionally broken I was?"

"Tam calm down I wasn't trying to do that okay? You know I don't mean it like that." He sounds guilty.

"Then stop saying all this stuff. I don't like how I was back then neither do I wish to go back to that dark world. A dark place where you can't get out because of fear. Please just stop." I hung up and started crying so hard. I hated how it still affected me that I used to be so broken.

Jas barged into my room fifteen minutes later, I guess Jay told her what happened.

"T" she ran to my bed and pulled me to a hug. "We're so sorry. Jasper told me what happened." I tried to speak but I didn't find the words so I decided to keep quiet. Then Jas finally said something after a few minutes of silence.

"T he's back." I snapped my head and looked at her. "He came back two days ago, after Jay told me you thought you saw him I remembered he said four months so I stalked his friend Brandon on Instagram and found out they even threw him a welcome home party."

"So he's back and he wanted to see me?" I sat straightly on the bed. "Jas he came to see me I mean who else would he come to see here he only knew me right?" Jas sighed and wiped my tears.

"It's highly possible but let's not jump into conclusions cause he didn't even say hi or something." I slumped my shoulders in defeat. She's right though. "Why don't you take a shower and I'll take you out for breakfast okay?" I nodded and got up to the bathroom.

The hot water really helped me calm down and think straight not get all emotional and shit. I decided to wear something that would lift up my mood so we went colour today. I wore a yellow shirt and a white denim mini skirt with white half boot converse. My hair was in a messy bun with some hoop earrings.

"You look gorgeous. A skirt?"

"Stop it, you're gonna make me change my mind about it." I don't wear skirts a lot just that this shirt looks good with skirts.

"Come on pretty face let's go" she dragged me out and we went to my car. Tyler wasn't around, he was at the twins' house, they all did a sleepover there last night.

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"If you don't watch your eating you might gain weight" I stopped eating and glared at Jas. She did not just say that. I finished chewing.

"You just did not say that" she chuckled and continued eating.

"Tamara." I looked up. "Can I ask you something?" I was still chewing so I just nodded. "Do you think it's being too forward including intimacy in my relationship with Jay?"