occidendum

The second entry

Monday 23rd April 2018

I feel it burning inside me again, the hatred and longing to take another life is taking over every thought I have, every woman I meet that shares the same characteristics triggers the darkest part of my soul and I am left creating unimaginable scenarios of a violent scene in my head, I am ashamed of hiding myself. However I laugh at your workings....
The work you do in mysterious ways..it's seems that I have met the younger of the summer sisters and although she shares blood she doesn't share her traits, I find myself attracted and unable to speak properly, her fine skin and flaming locks are angelic,her freckles and kitten like green eyes make me feel more than desire to touch her, her gentle voice is silk and her delicate hands and fingers that I so wish to hold in mine are soft like velvet and I can't help to want to protect and hold her small frame, I feel shame and desire for the monstrous act I have done to crush her but nevertheless I know she could never share emotions for me.