𝐷𝑎𝑟𝑘 𝑠𝑒𝑐𝑟𝑒𝑡𝑠, ℎ𝑖𝑑𝑑𝑒𝑛 𝑡𝑟𝑢𝑡ℎ

I. without you...

loving you is a losing game...~ Duncan Laurence

Y/N's POV:

Flashback to the breakup:

It was the last day of school. The students were at Hogsmeade station waiting on the Hogwarts express to take them home. I was brought from a separate carriage as Draco's, and so I was on my tippy toes searching him for him at the station. His platinum blond hair was unable to oversee.

I ran towards him, "DRAY" I shouted. I clutched onto him, giving him a warm hug and of course, he hugged back, but harder than usual. Carefully I lifted his chin, glancing into his silver-grey eyes, asking him if he was ok, and searching for any reaction. His smile slowly faded away, suddenly he seemed cold and distant. This was a new side of Draco that I never met. He then held my hand and opened his mouth wanting to say something, though nothing came out. For a moment we stared into each other's eyes and all of a sudden it felt as if the time stopped moving and everything else around us just froze still. Finally, with a shaking voice, he answered with something I'd never thought I'd hear from him: " I have to leave you. I have to end us. I don't love you anymore in fact, I never really did. You mean nothing to me anymore. I'm sorry... Goodbye, darling.", let go of my hand and walked away back to his friends, entering the train. Just like that, it was over. The day has come to what I'd fear most- losing the boy I truly loved.

~now~

It was a cold rainy night.  Big raindrops pouring down the sky and slamming against
Y/N's bedroom window. Outside the wind was blowing and howling at the trees which seem to be dancing. The moonlight was shining so bright, breaking out of the wall of suffocating clouds that were covering the moon, and into Y/N's bedroom. Such weather didn't mind Y/N, as a matter of fact, she normally adored it. It would give her a cosy vibe to relax and distress while waiting for the rain to pass by and hoping to find a sight of a rainbow soon after. Though now and then since the breakup, she would feel as if she were sinking into the rain with lost hope of finding her way out - much like this rainy night.

Y/N's POV:

They say time can heal all wounds, yet I lay here on my bed with an ocean of tears flowing down my cheeks, dazed away with thousands of thoughts and memories running through my mind. His last words "I don't love you any more. Goodbye, darling." constantly repeating in my head breaks my heart.  I question myself every single day, what I could've done better, or what the reason for our breakup was. I guess it's a mystery I will never figure out. Something about that day didn't feel right to me. Now only if he knew about all my sleepless nights; was it his intention to do this to me? Does he feel the same way? Did our relationship really mean nothing to him as he said it did? Or was I too foolish, thinking he had ever loved me in the first place? It felt so real. I thought we had something special. Ending things was already painful enough as it is but, not telling the reason is worse. I'm still trying to find a way to love myself. It seems as though nothing that I do is good enough. How could I let him break me so easily? I'm not over him, and I'm not giving up on him- not yet. How could I ever love someone new? I am a wreck without him. Gosh, how I wish to be laying in his arms right now, my face pressed to his chest, listening to the sweet rhythm of his heartbeat, holding him tight close to me and never letting go.

As I reached out for my alarm clock on my bedside table to check the time, I heard something drop. Quietly I got out of bed without trying to wake up my parents next door, searching for whatever fell. I peeked under my bed and found a ring, though however, it wasn't just any ordinary ring. It was a ring Draco had given me for my birthday. On the outside were his initials: D.L.M and on the inside was forever mine carved.  Of course, I got him a matching ring too, but with my initials carved in. Old precious memories crossed my mind. I remembered the wide heart-warming smile he had on his face when surprising me with it.

I wonder how he's been doing, and how he's settling his life. It's been about two months since I last saw him.

" I will never leave you..." he said, well if that's so, I guess he might've lied.~

All these thoughts at once gave you a headache, so you climbed briefly back to bed, taking a look at the clock beforehand. The yellowy bright light beamed into your sleepy eyes almost blinding you, showing the time 3:35 am. You took deep breaths to calm yourself down, likewise trying to let all the stress and negativity disappear, as you struggle to fall asleep.

~ Eventually you dozed off into a deep sleep unbothered by your surroundings ~