Our Broken Worlds (Boyxboy)

Our Broken Worlds chapter 20

A/N: so a little warning before you read. This chapter is going to be the ultimate shittiest but I didn't want to keep you guys waiting. So......

Leo's POV

They say you never know how much you love something until it's gone. Wanna know what I have to say? It's bullshit. I appreciated and looked up to Jason day in and day out ever since we met. Two peas in a pod- that's what we were.

Now I can't help it if the last few weeks have been hell, and I certainly can't say that I've been there for Jason. And that's what I'm afraid to admit. Percy was right, because you know? I am a terrible best friend. I just hate I never got to say goodbye or I was sorry for that matter.

They buried his body yesterday. Hate me all you want, but I didn't go to the funeral. Nico spoke in behalf of Jason as the coordinator, and others shared their few words. You can probably guess that I got a lot of shit for not turning up. Once again I was deemed a horrible best friend.

But Nico understands. He always does. He knows me better than any of them, and I'm glad for it. But when he started to jump on the bandwagon with everyone else, I started to think otherwise.

"You know maybe you should go talk to Piper. She's running a rampage around camp for you,but luckily I saved you. I told her you left camp borders to get away for a while. "

I narrowed my eyes at Nico and srunched my nose when I saw him smoking. It's a bad habit he's started since Jason's death, and I tried to get him to stop, but he wont. He's just as bad as me. Instead of moping, Nico smokes around the clock. I haven't kissed him since the......that day.

The urge for my hand to grab the air freshener was strong. I should be used to smoke, but this is different. I glanced at the air freshener a few seconds longer before turning back to Nico. It made me really angry when he did this. Nico's hurting himself for no reason.

"You can't do that outside?!" I snapped. "It's annoying." And to be truthful, it really isn't. My aunt Rosa used to smoke all the time around me, blowing the fumes in my face just for fun. It's just scary because even though I hated her, I didn't want her to die on me- just like with Nico.

He plays with the cigarette between his fingers before throwing it on the floor. He stepped on it, making the flames die and leaving behind the remains of ash on my floor. Nico scowled at me before hopping up. "You know, you gotta get out here soon. I'll even rat you out to Piper if I have too. " He glared at me as he walked to the door. 

Anger boiled in me and I couldn't stop the words that came out of my mouth. "Jason wouldn't have ratted you out for the world. "

Nico's eyes widened and the shadows stretched around him.  A single tear fell down his cheek. "I really care about you, Leo. I just wish you did for yourself. "

And he was gone.

Growling angrily, I hurled the nearest item into the wall. Surprise, surprise. It was the fucking air freshener.

Everything was falling apart  now. Everything. I can't go a day without blaming myself for Jason's death. Maybe if I had been there instead of fighting Hazel, I could've saved his life. Now, I know he was already badly bruised, but that wasn't anything. I easily could've stopped him from dying.