The True Confessions of a Teenager

Chapter 1: Learning about Jessy, Mika, and Missy

As a kid I had a normal life, right? I had my mom, dad, brother, sister, my loving grandparents and a couple of pets. We lived in a nice house and my mom and dad always drove nice vehicals. Well Sadly this isn't a happy story about fairy tale familys. They are not real, so what ever hope of a fairy tale you had for this story should be picked up and thrown out a window. This is the story of a kid with a disorder that even she can't contain.

Growing up felt like I could never decide between good or evil, still can't for the most part, but as I have gotten older I have found a way to deal with it or so I think. I am not saying that the things I do are the best ways to deal with being pulled around into a million dictoions, never knowing what to say or if you were going to say the worng thing, when you know not too. 

I am 19 now and still haven't gotten life figured out and want you to meet me, all 3 of me. Jessy, Mika, and Missy. Who am I? I am them and they are me. That's the only way I can explain it. Jessy, or Jessica, is who I was born as and who I lose with in the mess of my brain. Mika, is a girl who I meet when I truned 7. Mika is a praty girl of sorts, she always causes trouble. Last but not least Missy, she is the confused part of me who don't know who she is because she dont understand her age.

This may all seem a bit odd but this is who I am. I have disorder known as Multi-Personaitly Disorder (MPD). I wasn't told that this is what I had until I was 16. I never knew because I didn't tell anyone, I was scared of being seen as "crazy" or "problemed", I even feared what would happen if I had told someone. In my family you didn't talk about your problems or about your feelings, we just weren't that kind of family. Yes, we had family time and did family things but we didn't talk until it was to late.