Back To You

Chapter One

Harry's POV

Here I am, as many times before, standing in front of an enormous amount of people all screaming my name. This has got to be my favourite part of the job, it gives me that adrenaline rush I have grown to love.

I just finished one of the LA shows from Love On Tour and it was amazing. I was still very happy and hyped about the whole thing as I went backstage.

I finally got to my dressing room, after what felt like hours walking backstage. I plopped down on the couch that was in it and layed my head down. I was incredibly tired and i closed my eyes for a second as my thoughts wandered off.

How I was able to hold this facade up that I carefully created over the years, to look like a very optimistic person who was always happy. And it weren't all lies, I do truly enjoy performing and I actually really like writing songs, I'm just missing something in my life but I can't quite decide what that something is.

I pushed my thoughts away just as fast as they came, and got changed from my stage clothes to semi-baggy jeans and a white jumper. I then called my driver to pick me up from the arena and bring me to my appartment.

In the car I again thought about that 'something'. Deep down I knew exactly what it was, I just didn't admit it and kept denying. But what if we did get back together with the boys, what would happen. ''I'd have no self-respect left, that's for sure'' I mumbled quietly so my driver couldn't hear me. But as always I just ignored the thoughts about One Direction because I'm fucking fine and I don't need those painful thoughts to survive.

As my driver dropped me off at my appartment I flashed him a small smile that he returned and then drove off. I unlocked my door and threw my shoes off, damn I was tired. I was going to just jump right into bed until I got a call from an unknown number.

I hesitated before I decided to pick it up.

''Hello...'' I said in a slow voice.

''Hi, Harry, uhmm''

It was Liam.

I didn't move for a couple of seconds as I was clearly very surprised he was calling me since I hadn't spoken to him in three years. I answered Liam with:

''Oh, hi, Liam, I guess we haven't spoken to you in a while'' Liam stopped me there and said:

''I am aware, but I wanted to talk to you about something..'' I once again stood still in my tracks as I was wondering what Liam could be talking about.

''Do you want to get back together with the boys?'' Liam asked wasting no time on small talk and going straight to the point.

My heart was racing and I was kind of freaking out, but Liam couldn't hear. I mean, I actually missed the boys a lot I just couldn't do that to myself. Liam eventually did seem to notice that I wasn't answering him, and said:

''I get it if you don't want to, I mean you're so succesful and you seem very happy'' he chuckled lightly ''it's just that I miss you guys a lot and it's not that I don't like being a solo artist I just really miss that comfortable, homey feeling when I was with you guys.''

''I also miss you guys a lot, but'' my voice slowed down a little ''I'm just not sure if I can do it, if I can do it to myself, you know?'' I said.

''Oh, okay, just let me know if you decided anything and Niall already said yes, he also said that he misses you.''

This made me smile, because I also missed Niall and his cute Irish accent.

''I just don't want 'the incident' to repeat itself.'' I knew that with 'the incidendt' Liam meant Zayn leaving the band because of his bad mental health.

I stopped him by saying: ''I'll think about it, it's just al so complicated, you know. It's not that I don't want to it just feels like betraying myself.'' I said in a surpisingly depressing voice. Liam also noticed that but didn't say anything about it because he didn't want to push me.

''Okay, already a massive thanks, just you talking to me makes my day, byeeee''

''Bye.'' I said before I hung up.

The last thing that Liam said made me kind of sad, had I really been ignoring the boys so much?

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AN: Soooooooooo this is my first fanfiction I've ever written so let me know if u like it . Btw Liam doesn't like know that Harry isnt happy. Also there will be Larry later on in the story, byeeee
love,
Emmaaaaa