Leaving You is Harder

Hiya! This is the first thing of mine that anyone has ever read >.> ever x.x I hope you look it!! Vote! Fan! And all that good stuff ;c

oh! Merry Christmas!! ^.^

xoxo

 Kohaku

Dear, Nick. My bestfriend,

I like you. I've told you how much I do. And you couldn't careless. I know I'm not pretty and i know i'm now smart. If i was, i never would have fallen for you and i could have saved my heart alot of break. I know you could never return my feelings....knew it from from start. Why would anyone like someone like me anyway? A nobody. But still i hoped. But how? How could all the sweet text, late nights and inside jokes mean nothing to you? How could you just go on like my feelings for you didn't matter, like they never existed? Do you even realize how much it hurt me to just sit there and smile while you talked about the girl you DID like? Everytime you say her name it breaks my heart all over again. How could you just talk about other girls in front of me...When a week before i told you how much you meant to me, how much i liked you. And you just brushed it off like what i said how no effect on you. I guess i know now, that it didn't. I had thought you were the nicest, kindest person i knew, i was horribly wrong. But still i stand here...smiling like the  idiot i am. Never leaving your side. Everythime you look at me with those beautiful blue eye or say my name with your sweet voice, its like all the pain you've ever caused me just disappears... like all the bad momeries are erased. I'v tried forgetting about you. But thats been damn near impossible. i mean, you tell me, could you forget something that never seems to leave your mind? You can try to act like we're just friends and that nothings changed, but it has. Your just to blind to notice. I love you... and yes, i know you could never feel you same way. You'v made that perfectly clear. And anyways why would you? I'v never been good at anything. I know i'v never been good enough...know i never will be. Ugly. Stupid. Worthless. These are just a few of the words i'v been called. But no matter what people would say about me i would always try my best and prove them wrong, never giving up. Loving you is hard. but for me....giving up would be harder. So i'm still here by your side hoping that maybe one day you will look at me and say "She's everything I need".

~Well, thats it. My first story..kinda lol I hope you liked it! Comment and let me know what you thought! would y'all like to read about how ashley meet and fall for nick? let me know!

xoxo

Kohaku