TW: Self-Harm, Mental Breakdown, Verbal abuse. ⚠️
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{George's POV}
"i-uh, it was just our neighbours, we had to go break it up" I stutter. The call is silent, I wonder if I have been caught, a wave of relief passes over me when the two reply.
"okay dude" Sapnap yawned, I wondered if he was going to go off soon, either way I didn't really care to be honest.
"Hey guys, I think imma hop off for tonigh, cya" he says softly.
I sat in my chair awkwardly, I really didn't know what to say, I just wanted to do badly tell Clay about everything, but i couldn't. And it breaks my heart.
"George..I have something to tell you" Clay says, his voice obviously sounding very optimistic and excited.
"What is it Dream" I smile, I generally am curious.
"I am coming to England, to visit you" My smile dropped, he couldn't see me like this, he'd think i'm some sort of sick freak. I didn't want to lost him, so I disconnected from the call, shut off my PC and headed into the bathroom, this was a regular occurrence for me, so it's less painful now.
TW:SELF HARM ⚠️
I grab the razor from the shelf in my bathroom, there was scars upon scars on my arms but i didn't care at this point, I left cut upon cut on my thigh and watched them bleed out slightly, It was bad, but it's what I deserve. I push everyone away, because i'm such a freak, I don't deserve Dream or Sapnap or anyone. I'm a nobody. I was a mess, I needed to let it all out. So that's exactly what I did, i sat on the floor and cried, contemplating my life decisions and every single mistake i have ever made, my deep thoughts and quiet sobs were interrupted by the familiar ringtone that i immediately recognised as Dream's. Shit.Not now.
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bad habits and broken hearts- dreamnotfound
Fanficthis story contains major angst and things people may not be comfortable with, for example: TWWW: ED's, suicide, cancer, addiction,slight NSFW, self harm and delusions, please remember that this is not real and strictly just a fanfic!
