Clexa - If they had their „someday"

My name is Clarke Griffin. I'm 20 years old and I survived Praimfaya. I stayed on earth while the others were and still are either in the bunker or in space. I'm alone. I thought I'd die. I thought I'd lose it all, my life, my memories, everything. I didn't. I'm alive. After Praimfaya, my radiation wounds needed to heal, I thought I'd die because it hurt so badly, I threw out blood and the radiaton wounds looked so bad but again, I didn't die. The nightblood worked and my body regenerated itself. It took three weeks or longer but after that, I felt good. I felt like someone, who didn't only survive Praimfaya but also like someone, who saved her friends. At the thought of it, I became sad but also happy because I'm sure, they did it. They live, I just know it. It's been 713 days since Praimfaya and slowly, I start to feel alone. I walked around through the whole area which didn't got fully destroyed by the radiaton and I saw some animals who survived this catastrophe. I don't know how but on earth is still life like deers, rabbits and birds. Not very much of them but still. Without them, I would probably eat grass and leaves. These animals also make me feel not that alone on earth. On some days, I feel powerless. I'm the only human on the ground. Alone, all on my own. I tried to dig out the people in the bunker but I couldn't do it alone. Trees and the ruins of Polis lay over the bunker. It's nearly impossible to get to them. How are they doing? How's it in there? Maybe a bit too gloomy and boring. They haven't seen the sun or breathed real air since Praimfaya. Maybe for them, it's too early. Nobody of them has nightblood like me. With my hands, I touch my hair and sigh. When will they come back? Anyway, I try to look for a sign of life everyday. I try to contact the ark where my friends Bellamy, Raven, Monty, Harper and Murphy are as well as Echo and Emori. I think it's my own way to stay sane. To talk to sombody else than myself. At least I hope they hear me, I don't know it yet. "Bellamy, can you hear me?" I sit down on the ground with the radio and stare at the clear blue sky. "It's been 713 days since Praimfaya. I'm alive. Earth will be habitable again in like two years. Can't wait to see you again." I stop talking and hope that I hear a voice. The voice of Bellamy or anybody of my friends up there. Nobody answers. "You can't hear me, can you?" I try my best to not lose hope. There's still hope, I know it. As I walk back to my truck, I hear a noise. A deer, I thought at first but then, it sounded like a human. I can't be serious. Nobody except me is on the ground. Slowly, I grab my gun. On my gun, there are all the names written down of people I lost. There stands Wells, Finn, Charlotte but most importantly, I wrote Lexa on it. The love of my life. The one who died for me. I never thought I'd love somebody again after Finn's death but I did and I fell in love with this incredibly strong woman called Lexa. Impossible to think that she was the Commander of all the Grounders at such a young age. Lexa was powerful, wise, strong and independent. She's beautiful inside and outside. I loved her like I loved nobody before and I will never love someone the way I loved Lexa. She loved me too early and I loved her too late. I miss her more than I could ever say. I promised her that someday, we will owe nothing more to our people. This is now but I'm here, all alone without the love of my life. She deserved the world but I couldn't give it to her. After this throwback of the happy times in my life, I turned around as fast as I can because someone or something is right behind me. Slowly, I turned in the direction I heard the noise. As I saw her, I instantly forgot how to breathe and my heartbeat went too fast as. "Lexa." I panted hardly and looked at her. Her green eyes, as beautiful as the green of the earth, her brown hair, everything looked exactly like before. She looks unharmed and save, like Titus never pointed the gun at me and shot Lexa by accident. Accident. A good word for something like this. "This isn't real, it can't be. How is this possible?" I whispered breathless. "I told you I'll always be with you." she softly looked at me and walked over. "How?" still shocked, I starred into her eyes. "Clarke, breathe." she said with a soft voice. I sat down on the ground, touching my face. I can't be serious. Am I dead? What's happening? Maybe I felt too alone the whole time on the ground and I started to hallucinate. Lexa sat down next to me and stroked my head softly. "You're okay, Clarke. It's okay." she whispered and kissed my forehead. "How?" I asked her quietly while I was leaning on her shoulder. "It doesn't matter. I'm here now." she said and smiled at me. "I missed you so badly, Lexa." I said while tears ran down my cheek. "I love you too, Clarke" she said and looked into my eyes. "I never had the chance to tell you that." She didn't wait for my response, she slowly kissed me with such an intense feeling and I lost myself in this kiss. It's warm and full of love. I missed her so badly. My Commander. The woman that made my heart beat faster. Lexa looked at me and smiled. "I love you so much, Lexa. I'm so sorry for our rare time together. I.. I just hadn't any place for feelings.. my people.." Lexa stopped me with a soft kiss. "I know, beautiful girl." she said with a soft smile. "You don't have to justify yourself. I know it." I smiled at her. "I missed you so much." I still had tears in my eyes and Lexa whiped them away and gave me a warm and lovely hug. I layed my head into her neck and smelled her aroma which made me feel home and save. "I love you" I whispered yearningly after she squeezed my hands softly. "I felt so alone after you.." I sobbed and tears ran down my cheeks. "But I didn't. I'm here now, Clarke." she whiped away my tears and looked at me. "Then, why did you leave? I thought you loved me." I sobbed again and looked at her green eyes. "Nothing is more intense than my love for you. I had to leave, I had no choice but I did it so you can be save, Klark kom Skaikru. I'll tell you everything when the time has come but for now, I'm here. I will never leave you again." I looked at her. I remembered the time we were happy. I told her that maybe someday, we'll owe nothing more to our people. I thought we'll never be able to live that life after she was gone. But now? Now, everything will be better. Lexa is alive. She's here with me. We can just live. I smiled at Lexa and she smiled back. I never saw her this happy. I grabbed her hand and squeezed it softly. "You'll be with me?" I asked her. "Always." she said and kissed me with so much love and passion and I immediately sunk into this beautiful and intense kiss. For that moment, nothing else mattered. It's only me and her. Until the end of time.