Do you know how hard it is to pretend to be your buddy when I like you?
Sobrang hirap..
Bakit?
Simple lang..
Una sa lahat ayaw na ayaw kong mareject..
Sino ba naman ang may gusto nun diba?
Ayaw kong mawala yung friendship na meron sa atin ngayon...
Hindi ko naman kasi alam if you feel the same way..
Masakit mareject lalo na masakit ang ma-friendzone...
Dumating na nga ako sa punto na sinabi ko sa sarili ko ito.
I wish that I had never met you..
Then there would be no need to impress you.
No need to want you..
No need for loving you..
No need for crying over you..
No need for heartbreaks..
No need for pain and tears..
No need for forgotten promises..
No need for rejected hugs..
No need for crying myself to sleep..
No need for acting like you care..
No need, for everything you've done to make me feel like absolutely nothing..
(I wish... to the last line bago 'to, nakuha ko lang somewhere here sa internet.)
Masyado na kasing masakit e.
Lalo na tuwing nakikita ko na masaya ka sa iba...
Napakaa-manhid mo naman. :(
May nagtanong saakin noon..
"Alam mo ba kung bakit tayo nasasaktan?"
"Bakit?"
"Kasi, lagi tayong umaasa sa mga bagay na walang kasiguraduhan.."
Oo nga naman noh?
"Naghihintay sa isang nakaraan na hindi na pwedeng balikan.."
Eh, sa mahal mo nga e. Wala ka naman ng ibang magagawa kundi ang umasa..
"At nagmamahal ng taong hinid tayo kayang pahalagahan.."
Then it hit me. Tama ang sinabi niya.
Kahit masakit, kailangang tanggapin..
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To summarize things..
Kailangan mo munang masaktan... that's how you learn...
The strongest people out there
The ones who laugh the hardest with a genuine smile,
those are the people who fought the toughest battles.
Because they have decided that they are not going to let anything hold them down..
They are moving on...
