The Bad Boy's Roomate

Chapter 29 : Worthy

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Toby's POV

* Later in the evening *

I can't believe I was so rude to her. Well I can, I mean when am I not. I'm such a dick honestly. But at the same time it's not like I had a choice. I need to push her away. It's the only way to keep her from knowing my dark past.

As much as it hurt me acting that way towards her, it had to be done. And now she is leaving. I really don't want her to but I know it's for the best. She can start her life afresh from my toxicity. My secrets. I would be lying if I didn't say I'm going to miss her.

So fucking much.

Not being able to hold her. Have her in my reach. Speak to her. It's going to kill me inside.

Well it's either that or let her know how much of a monster you truly are, my subconscious likes to remind me. I can't have her knowing. I would rather her be away from me and hate me then know how much of a horrible person I am.

As much as I would like to believe that being away from her is going to allow me to lose my feelings, I know that's a definite lie. No matter where she is or how much time we spend apart, I'm still going to have the same feelings for her.
I know it.

But she doesn't feel the same way.

I have never ever in my life met a girl like her. Even felt this way towards a girl. I am the very last person you would expect to catch feelings. I used to believe that it would never be possible to only care for one girl but now I realise how wrong I was.

Every kiss, moment, conversation we have shared holds such a special meaning in my heart. A meaning I will never forget regardless of what happens. Spencer is the one for me. I know it. We are destined to be together no matter how much she tries to deny it.

I'm still so confused on what to do about the whole Alex gang situation. Now that I know it's him that somehow knows my secret, I'm going to have to make a plan. There's no way I'm letting him blackmail me forever. I just have to wait for the right moment to strike. Hopefully then I can get the revenge I have been waiting for.

I am so completely lost in my thoughts that I don't even realise that it is already two o'clock in the morning. The sound of the door slowly creaking open knocks me back into reality. I turn to face the person.

"Toby, come quickly." Hanna whispers whilst gesturing me to follow her.

I quickly get out my bed and follow her into her room, trying not to make too much noise. Once we enter Hanna's room I spot Aria worriedly looking at a sleeping Spencer.

"What's wrong?" I ask but receive an answer immediately.

"Toby." Spencer murmurs in her sleep, a look of distress covering her face.

Right at that moment. My heart drops.

Her calls for me slowly become louder and she begins moving in her sleep. It is evident by her expression that she is having some kind of nightmare. Which I am involved in.

I pull her into my embrace using my arm without the cast and slowly call her name in attempt to wake her up. 

"Spence, wake up." I speak but she continues to move around and speak incoherent words.

There are very few words I can understand from what she is saying. These nightmares of hers have been a reoccurring but for the past few days she stopped having them. By the looks of it they have returned.

Suddenly Spencer jumps awake. There is a layer of sweat covering her body and her hair has become all messy and matted. She looks around frantically as if she is checking for any sort of danger.