It's been several years since I took a vacation, three to be precise. I've always been someone who overworks, has no social life or any personal life for that matter. Years of working non-stop made me forget what it's like to take downtime or a break. I call myself a workaholic but there's nothing to be proud of in being called that. The earth is beautiful and we've been given this chance to be born and experience every bit of magic that life has to offer.
So a week ago, I decided to make last-minute bookings and catch a flight to Goa, I have to say it wasn't the best decision as I prefer being frugal and save money but I ended up spending more since booking it at the very last minute. But when I reached Goa, it made it all worth it. I've never been a fan of traveling because I enjoy stability, I like living the monotonous life but once you taste how good it feels to live in the moment, walk barefoot on the beach without a single worrisome thought in mind, you understand how stupid it feels to be a workaholic and spend hours staring at your computer screen.
I'm often hit by the realization that life is nothing if we don't live it. If we wait for that one day to come, one day I'll find time to do this, one day I'll finish all the tasks in my hands and go walk outside. When I have this, I'll do that. But we forget that life is happening, right at this moment, it's only this present moment that we have control over, not the past or the future. What's in the past will never come back nor can we change the future until we make changes in the present.
When we took a cab to get home from the airport, we passed by so many tall buildings, houses, mountains, highways. I felt so small, like a tiny particle of stardust in this huge universe. I was hit by the realization of how small I am. We're constantly at a battle with ourselves, comparing to other people, looking at the social feeds of strangers and wishing how we should have been in their place, taking vacations after vacations, spending time with their friends, achieving great things in life but we don't know their internal struggles. I haven't been a traveler but this one trip made me realize so many things I lack within myself also things I have that are unique, I realized how tiny my problems are and how big the world is.
Until the next adventure.
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